Power Over Me

Standing on my front porch, he wrapped his arms around me and he leaned into me.

My heart began to speed. I could feel my face start to tingle and though my skin is a caramel brown, I knew he could see my face flush bright pink.

Our eyes locked on each other’s lips, Daniel caressed the side of my face and closed the distance.

His lips innocently and slowly felt mine. He pulled back for just a second and then kissed me again. It was innocent and curious and new for me but it was everything I had dreamed of.

He broke the kiss and rested his forehead against mine.

I never knew a moment could feel this perfect.

Daniel, my best friend ever since we were little, was always the one that made me feel so relaxed yet so nervous all at the same time. My crush on him had gone either unnoticed for all our lives or I was just really good at hiding my feelings. I loved him.

He was more experienced then me, and that made me self conscious when it came to our kiss. I knew he had done way more then just kissing. I mean I watched for years as he dated other girls, girls who dressed sexy and knew how to flirt and just had this thing about them that I could never seem to conquer.

He was the type to be in and out of relationships quite often and I supported him through his ups and downs with them. I would always meet them, and they’d never liked me, simply because I was a girl and I was Daniels best friend.

He would come to me with his problems, though I had never any experience with dating myself I would give an honest answer or opinion. I guess I wasn’t that pretty or I didn’t dress provocatively enough, but guys had never really shown interest in me.

We lived in the northern part of Michigan and in the fall time I mostly wore my curly hair up into a bun, I had a pair of glasses I wore, I never had the courage to try contacts. Mostly sweaters, jeans and or any saggy comfortable clothes were always my go to of what I preferred to wear.

Today was a bit different. I wore a tight yellow dress, it was long though, and it didn’t show any cleavage, but it wasn’t my usual attire. It was my birthday and I wanted to look pretty for once. Today, my curly bun was no more, and I wore my natural hair down.

Daniel would always call me curly fries, cause of the ringlets in my hair.

My first kiss was so special to me, because it was with the only person that I had ever had a crush on. Sure, I get nervous when I come in contact with the male sex in general but Daniel made me feel different, not just nervous, but at peace with him.

“Thank you for taking me out on my birthday.” I said softly, with a shy smile.

It was my 18th birthday and he took me to our usual diner/bowling spot in town. But it wasn’t like two buddies hanging out today, there was something between us tonight that had never shown itself before. When Daniel saw me in my dress he had nearly lost his words, which wasn’t like him at all.

He was charming and witty and always knew how to say the right thing even when he wasn’t doing the right things.

“I never thought you saw me this way.” He closed his eyes and sighed. A look of pain on his face. “I don’t want to hurt you Mavia.”

I had cried many times over this man in the past. Sometimes he’d go ghost on me because his girlfriends didn’t like that we were close but he’d always reappear and we’d slip back into being best friends. He’d already hurt me and I knew I’d never stop loving him.

“Hey.” I grabbed his face and looked into his eyes with certainty. “I’m not your past. I love you, and I’ve waited for you and I trust you.”

I nearly felt like I was trying to convince him.

He smiled and kissed me on the lips again.

“You know me better then anyone, I’ve made mistakes before, and I can’t do that to you.” Daniel winced.

He had cheated and lied in past relationships. He did have a bad boy reputation, he was very good looking and he loved to have fun and girls loved to have fun with him. People were drawn to his presence and he loved the effect he had on them. And I ached for the day that he would love the effect he had on me.

Per usual he would tire of his girlfriends quickly in the past. We’ve stayed up hours and hours talking about his darkness and I was always a kind safe place for him to take refuge in. He would hurt them and then he’d hurt me and then he’d hurt them and then he’d hurt me... I felt special because he would always come back to me.

“I don’t believe you will.” I said.

Things were different now. We kissed.

“I love you Mavia. You’re the only one whose ever seen me, fully looked past the monster, and seen the good here. I’m not sure I can live up to what you deserve and I don’t want to loose you.”

I smiled, though his words seemed to struck a nerve within me. I could feel the hollow feeling in my chest, I was nervous he was getting cold feet or I was freaking him out.

“That won’t happen. My love for you is unconditional. You are enough Daniel.”

He pulled me into a tight hug. My face disappeared into my neck and the smell of his leather jacket lingered in his scent. He smelled so good, like really, really good.

I could hear his pulse, his nervousness. It was loud, like drums in my ears. I took it all in, sniffing the air around him, his blond hair, his skin. My teeth began to tingle and I wanted to lick him.

Lick him? I pulled myself from my trance and tried to remove myself from his embrace. I was starting to feel weird.

“I better get inside, it’s late.” I said.

His eyes trailed down my face from my eyes to my nose to my lips. There was a sexual tension between us that I never knew was possible. My hands gripped his jacket as he smashed his lips to mine aggressively. I lost my balance, and we found ourselves against the wall of my house. His tongue licked my lips asking for entrance, I opened up to his warmth. He tasted so good.

His hand moved down my chest and while his legs split mine apart, his other hand slowly made its way under my dress.

I felt a fire burn between my legs and I found the courage to run my hands through his blond hair and try to bring him as close to me as possible.

This was all exilerating, I had never made out with someone before, and the fact that it was with Daniel made me feel like I was on cloud nine. I never knew this could happen or I could feel like this. His kisses went from my lips to my cheeks to my neck and I had a front row view of his jawline and neck.

I could see a vein popping out. It was so hot, he looked so yummy, he felt so good.

I don’t know how it happened, I don’t know when it happened, but next thing I new my face was buried in his neck, not just my face. My teeth.

I was stuck in an world of pleasure.

He tasted so good. My ears started to ring, and all I felt was pure ecstasy. I sucked and bit harder and slowly my ears began to recognize a scream, a very quiet scream, one that I almost hardly noticed. It was like a soft terrified whisper. It didn’t stop me right away but it got louder and louder and finally I recognized the voice.

Daniel.

I came out of my frenzy and saw Daniel, in a panic, pinned down beneath me and bleeding heavily from his neck. He was screaming for help.

“Oh my god.” I whispered. I wiped my lips and saw blood across the top of my hand.

I looked back to him and my whole soul dropped. What did I do to him? I love him.

“SOMEBODY HElP!” I screamed hopping my parents would hear.

He gurgled on his blood and his eyes seemed to look through me. They were wide and in shock. I took off my scarf and held it up to his neck.

He was dying. What did I do to him?

He was growing pale. I had never seen someone die before, and I had never killed someone before. It’s a pain that I couldn’t describe.

I couldn’t help it, I let out a howling painful scream. A wind around us picked up and I saw the porch around us begin to crack and fall apart, the glass windows of the house shattered, debris began to fly around, the large trees began to crumble and fall around the house and his truck parked in the drive way began to move away from the house being blown away by the wind, it’s windows shattering too.

The front door opened from behind me and someone wrapped a hand around my mouth stopping the wind instantly.

“Looks like we got to you a little late.” Said an unfamiliar male voice.

I felt his hands move to my neck, there was a crack and everything went black.