The beginning 1999
"Eve!" My mother called to me hanging out of the door. "Eve get your butt in here!" Rushing down th road like a bat out of hell I heard my mom call my name. "Coming mom!" I yelled trying not to fall off my bike going too fast. I hopped off my bike and ran in the house. "Yes ma!" I said barley being able to breathe. My chest looked like I was getting CPR how fast I was breathing. "Now you know better! Go get that bike and put it up in the garage before it gets stolen. Make sure you shut that garage too my child. Dont need no mishaps in the morning you got school and I got work. That's all we need right now. And go get your brother and sister before they get they ass whooped!" I felt my eyebrows going up really high knowing she wasnt lying so I ran out the door and made it back in before the neighborhood lights came back on. If anyone was going to get they ass whooped it wasnt going to be me!
After taking a bath, washing my face, and brushing my teeth it was time to lay down. I went to bed day dreaming about tomorrow. I had a crush on this boy in the 11th grade named Jonathan Haynes. Football star of the school and all the ladies loved him like LL Cool J. He was so muscular, tall, dark, and with dreamy dimples and hazel eyes. He was so so cute! I would hug my big teddy bear and act as if it was him. I'd even act like we were kissing. Lol. I know I was too young, but hey I wasnt your average 13 year old. It was always something about the older guys that fascinated me. Later on letting me know I had serious daddy issues. But we will get to that.
As I started drifting off I pictured Johnathan and I walking down the beach holding hands. Giving eachother pecks a few times and his deep raspy voice in my ear telling me he loved me. Before I knew it he picked me up off my feet wrapped my legs around him and said that I was the most beautiful girl he'd ever laid eyes on. I felt my heart jump. My body twitched. My mouth dropped open and I was out like a light.
"Eve! Eeeeevvvve! Wake yo ass up baby! Time for school!" Yelled mama while doing the last touches of her makeup. Dragging out the bed i almost tripped and fell stumbling to the bathroom. "Morning mama," i said with horrible morning breathe. "Morning baby" ma replied. "Your clothes are already picked out by your book bag. We have 40 minutes dont wast your time baby. We dont get that back." Even tho i was the child that got cursed out ALL the time, mama was a brilliant parent. When she spoke it was for a reason and I didn't learn that until later in life. She always reminded me of that. Literally.
Walking into the bathroom mama combed my hair up while I brushed and washed my face. My brother and sister was watching tv eating breakfast. They were already trained. Lol. Looking in the mirror I noticed that I did not see the image that I wanted to see. Mama told me I was a very pretty girl, but I could not see it. I never told ma but I got picked on alot at school. The white kids would call me big nose and big lips and even made fun of my teeth. The black kids would ask me why do I talk so white. Hull, I hated my life. I couldn't get a break. So I asked mama. "Am I ugly? Everyone says my nose and teeth are too big for my face and I talk white." Ma said with a hard jerk to my neck. " Chile, if you believe everything that people say to you you'll never make it in life. People will do worse if you let them. So the day you start learning you more beautiful than you know then that's the day you've over came peoples opinions. " While finishing primping me with a pat on the butt ma said," now come on. We gots to go. Ima be late." Looking at my mother walking away I admired her beauty. My ma always had tracks in her hair long down to her ass. Curls some days but today it was straight. She wore a pencil skirt with cute platform heels, and a tube top tucked inside with hand size full c cup breast peeling half way out of the top of her shirt. My ma was gorgeous! To add the real 4 gold layered chains around her neck to show off her mocha colored slender neck and shoulders she was a beast! Every man on the block wanted my ma but she was not having it. She always had kids to raise and they didnt have enough teeth or money for her lifestyle. She was done with men in her life. She was about her and her kids success. Now that's something to admire!
"Eve let's go or you getting left!" Ma yelled. "Coming ma!" I said coming out of my daze. Yeah I was still sleepy but I would wake up eventually especially when I see Johnathan!
I was last to get dropped off and ma kissed me on the forehead as usual. To ensure me I was beautiful she grabbed my face and said,"you remember what I said now child. You are beautiful and dont let no one tell you any different! I'll see you after school baby." A kiss on the forehead again and one on my fat jaws for luck. Mama loved her babies jaws.
As I walked in I could hear the whispers from the girls who always stand in the corner looking at me all the time. Five wilder beasts that never left me alone. They swore they were my friends but every time I hung with them they always embarrassed me. Always yelling out something stupid to make people pay attention towards me or try to trip me up. So today I just stayed away. Walking by quickly I ran to first period. I heard one of them call my name twice. The first time I ignored it. The second time i turned but kept walking. Not noticing where i was going, i turned and ran smack into a hard wall. Well, atleast i thought it was a wall but it was Johnathan! Omg! He smelled so good. Like fresh soap, toothpaste, cologne and coconut lotions. I was startled. I looked up and seen his beautiful smooth chocolate face. He said to me,"Hey beautiful! Be careful where you going. You dont want to get hurt." I smiled and giggled about to piss on myself but I held it together pretty well atleast I thought. All of a sudden I felt dizzy. I heard the hyenas laughing then I seen Johnathan' arm reach out. He grabbed me before I hit the floor.
Coming back to, I woke up in Jonathan's arms and he was looking down at me carrying me. All 6'2 of him. His cologne just took me away again. "Hey are you ok? You gave me a scare. I'm taking you to the nurse." With my head still swimming I asked,"Am i dreaming?" He said," no and I'm late for class. As he sat me down he told the nurse he always walks his little sister to school and i accidental ran into him and fell out. The nurse giggled and told him he shouldn't be so handsome. I woke up fully then! As he was leaving the room. He knelt down to me and said," you're going to to be ok and grabbed my hand. Have a good day ok." I nodded my head and watched him leave. The nurse looked me over and said," no bumps and bruises sweetie. You should be fine. If I was you I would have done it too!"As she starts to laugh. I started to deny it her allegations but she stopped me and said she was going to take my blood pressure so I could be on the way to class.
By lunch time. My head was killing me. I just did not feel good at all. But the thought if being able to see Johnathan at the end of school was helping me make better decisions about staying at school. I could still smell him! As I was in the cafeteria getting lunch to make me feel better I see the hyenas looking and laughing once again. I also saw my best friend Jayah. I rushed to her as she flagged me down.
"Hey Jayah!" I said sitting down with my plate. We chatted it up til it was time for gym and thank God we had P.E. together cause Jayah always made my day. She was just like me. I could say she was my sister from another mother except she was mixed with chinese and black with the really pretty curly hair. She always never had a bad hair day. Me on the other had. I was getting there.
After school waiting in the car line, the nauseating feel had went away and I was more back to myself. Waiting for my ma to pull up sitting in the hall reading a book about rainbows and ponies. I looked up to see who else but Johnathan! Walking with a football in his hand a jersey on for the game they were having. Walking beside him was Jayah. I tried to hurry and look down but we caught eyes. He smiled and winked. My heart fluttered. Gaaaaa! I couldn't understand why I was so boy crazy! Jayah then sees me and runs to me. "Hey!" She says. I'm having a party this weekend. You should come. I forgot to tell you earlier. My brother just gave me word that my mom is going to let me have it this weekend. I looked over and seen Johnathan talking to some other high schoolers who comes to the middle school to walk with there siblings. Then I turned and looked Jayah and said," I didnt know he was your brother. She said," oh boy. Dont tell me you like my brother." I hurried to fix myself and said "no! I mean like I didnt know you had a brother!" Laughing Jaya said," yes silly. He's my half brother. You have to start paying more attention to what's going on girl. You be dreaming away all the time." Startled by someone calling my name I told Jayah that I would try my best to convince ma to let me go. Gave her a hug and left to get in the car to go home.
I made a promise to myself that I would get to be close to him one day. With a little more maturity, I could possibly have a chance. All while never thinking what my ma would say if she found out. Ya know what never mind. Some things should just go unsaid.
