Cycle Of Emotion

Wake up with butterflies,

But I have to rise.

My hands shake.

My head aches.

Thoughts fill my head.

My mind fills with dread.

Everything becomes background noise.

I feel alone.

Blown down by the glitch in my mind.

Seems like anxiety is my only friend.

Is this the end?

No,

It stings my mind

Like a bee

The pain so intense

I ignore it for a bit at one expense

My dreams untangle the knots of anxiety

Brushing through every bit

No detail left out

I’m so worn out

I feel so torn out of reality

I want to end this but it isn’t working

I feel it lurking

But now a constant attack

Just breathe

But my teeth chatter

I think I’m gonna shatter like glass

Now it’s time for bed

But I’m being stocked

Like prey

I need sleep but

The silence kills me

It’s no longer silent

Now it's violent

All the screams of the night

I cope and I cope

I know it will never truly be gone

So I try to read between the lines

Trying to see the signs

But we speed by

They want to go somewhere

It’s not rare that they want to go somewhere

But it’s becoming a nightmare

I can’t getaway

My mind is racing

Thought after thought

Tear after tear

When will it stop

It’s nonstop

The screams, the laughter, everything

It won’t stop until I can’t stay up

But then comes the nightmares

I’m in despair.

I’m so lost

So confused

But I can’t stop

They won’t stop