Chapter 1: Fragments of Truth
[Moluccas]
I never thought that I would hate rainy days this much. I can't take hearing its raindrops. It felt like every drop is piercing my heart to the point that I can't breathe. It's like my nightmare is haunting me and it makes me crazy! I trained myself to be strong to remove any possible emotions that I can feel. My only wish is to be numb but my memories makes me weak. I still remember everything... every words... every emotions that I never wish to feel again. That day when Cera Fritz came to our house full of my mother's blood. Kneeling before me and begging for something I cannot understand.
(*** Cera's words in Luccas's memory)
Luccas, baby please don't hate me. I didn't mean it... Babe! I didn't mean to hurt your mom! Your like my son... If only I got married to your father, maybe... maybe I become your mom... Please don't hate me... It's not my fault.
Lero, I don't mean to hurt her. I never intended for this to happen. Please believe me. You know how much I love you. I will never do anything that can hurt you. I hope I'm the one who is lying there instead of her. I want to end this. I don't want this! I didn't do anything wrong. Please, Lero tell me that we are okay... Please say something... Dad! Please explain it to Lero!
Did I make something wrong? Am I that evil for the sky to punish me this much? Ever since I was young, I live according to your wishes. Why should this happen to me! Dad, I don't want to be like this. It's not my fault...
(end of flashback***)
Not until I discovered that she killed my mom.
This feeling of too much anger reliving in my heart. I'm hoping that I never met her this time or I might lose my control. It's killing me. Mom, I wish you're here... Hugging me until I clear my mind. I miss you so much.
Luccass keep sobbing inside the bathroom. Locked himself inside for too long trying to drown his emotions through the shower and to hide himself from the noise of the rain.
