What if.....?

Insecurity- this is a word we all have used and heard. And this is a feeling we all have experienced.

Now, I'm not saying that being insecure always means being jealous, because that is, undoubtedly, not true. Jealousy is when you intentionally want something bad to happen to a person. But being insecure is when you feel inferior, when you feel you are not as good as the person before you. It does not necessarily mean that you want that person to go down, right?

And to strengthen my this argument, let me give you an example. I have an amazing and extremely extremely versatile group of friends. Each one is a unique specimen and has an exceptional talent that I wish I was gifted with.

I'm not saying that I'm talentless or anything even close to that. I know me and I know what my pros and cons are and I'm also confident enough to showcase myself as who I truly am. And just so you know I'm NOT depressed, I'm perfectly happy and content with what I have and who I am.

But, it is the human brain after all. There always has to be some negative to fight with all that positivity and that is exactly where 'insecurities' come in.

So, talking about this brilliant and diverse group of mine:

Well, to begin with there is this pair who are completely inseparable. One of them is a genius and when I say genius I mean Einstein level genius! ( I was originally going to write Newton but the poor lad was just proved wrong so.....)

And not only that, she is an excellent writer and is also a really good singer.

And for the second one, what can I say? Her voice is phenomenal! Literally something that I would kill for. And boy, is she mature? She is without a doubt the most 'sane' person of our squad!

The next pair are literally the harmony to one another. While one is super cool/super awesome guitarist with an unmatchable sense of humour; the other excels on the piano and is an extremely extremely 'innocent' person. Oh and did I mention, she is a writer as well?

Have you ever seen these really awesome people who are literally the sweetest and the most forgiving people that you can ever meet? Yeah well, that explains this next group of four. They are literally the source of all happiness (jokes and hilarious YouTube videos; which reminds me- have you guys seen 'Marblympics'?).

These kids are always so calm and composed and yet equally sassy. They have the kind of personality you fall in love with! Never being angry for more than 2 minutes, always bringing lip-smacking food, being the source of all 'hot' Shawn Mendes pictures and posts. Yup, this is exactly and literally them. Sure, they are immature at times but it is this immaturity that always brings a smile to my face.

And the last one; well, she behaves like my 'adopted kid' (I gave her good advice once and Boom....you are literally like my mom! *exaggerated sigh*)

She is brave. Brave enough to let the world know her thoughts, without any filter. This has definitely caused some major problems in the past, but it is the courage that I admire the most! Oh and she is also a real good writer.

(we do have a lot of authors in our group, don't we?)

And me, well, I am average! I am average and I am content with who and what I am. But there are times, times when I wish I could be better. Times when I wish I could be equally as good as them. I love these kids with all of my heart and always wish the best for them. Yet I can't stop myself from feeling insecure at times. See, I am not jealous, I am insecure! And I want to grow, I want to become better, I want to be equally as awesome as they are.

And with all of these thoughts I couldn't help but wonder, 'what if I weren't so insecure?'

Well, then I wouldn't have these little moments in my life when I would feel small, there wouldn't be times when I would feel even slightly worthless, then I would not lose my self esteem even if it is just a bit. There wouldn't be times when I would have to give a Pep talk to myself, when I would have to tell myself to be brave and confident. There wouldn't be times when I would revaluate my self worth!

And most importantly, there wouldn't be moments when I would be sad and greedy.

For me, being content is 'top priority' and it is due to this extremely annoying (yet helpful at times) brain and hormones that disturb the balance of my body.

But it is also during these times, that I make sure my strength doubles, that I know I am strong and that I could achieve anything and everything I wish (and work) for.

So to everyone out there, go tell this 'insecurity' that you don't give a damn. Why? Because you are strong, beautiful, capable, deserving and most importantly 'satisfied'

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Hey guys, chapter 1!

Let me know what you think....and keep mentioning what other 'what ifs' you want me to write about!

Also, if you have any friend that matches any of the descriptions, tag them there and let them know that you appreciate and love them!

Keep voting, commenting, reading, reviewing and sharing! Your comments and corrections are extremely valuable. I'm still an amateur writer, help me grow!

Lots of love and know that you are absolutely worth it!!!