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'Breathe, Amy.' My best friend, Leyla, kept on telling me this for the last 30 minutes, but it didn't help. Despite all of her best efforts, the pain didn't go away. In fact it just got worse and worse as I realized what happened this morning.

Flashback to this morning - 9am

I sighed as I looked at the road ahead of me. Still a long way to go but atleast it had stopped raining.

Today I'm finally heading back home after a vistit to my parents in Florida. Since I moved in with my boyfriend, Jake, we rarely met up, either the flight was too expensive or Jake didn't want me to go.

I snapped out of my thoughts once I saw a familiar sign, Welcome to Fort Wayne, Indiana, it read.

Only 15 minutes to go from here. 15 minutes untill I will be meeting the love of my life, Jason, again.

We met in college. Our first encounter was a bit like those overly romantic high-school movies : I bumped into him as i was rushing to one of my classes, he helped me pick up my books and slid a paper with his phone number on it between them.

Thinking of it made me giggle. I was so in love with him, his little imperfections that made him even more perfect to me. How a single smile would made my legs feel like jelly. Jason was the sweetest and most caring man I had ever met, the one I would hopefully spend the rest of my life with.

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My bottom hurt after driving for such a long time. My car, a 2005 Nissan Primera, was rather uncomfortable but it worked. Sort of.

I stepped out of the car and walked towards the entrance of the building. Me and Jake have been living here for about 3 years. The aparrment isn't big but it has a lovely view over the city.

For some reason I didn't feel comfortable being here again. Like something was off. I quickly brushed the feeling off as i walked inside the small elevator.

I noticed something was off the moment I set foot in the apartment. There were 2 glasses of champagne on the table. Maybe it's from one of his friends? Yeah, it's probably that. Jason must have invited Austin, his best friend, and they probably went to a football match.

I walked to the kitchen to clean the glasses when I heard a noise. It was too soft to hear but it seemed to come from our bedroom.

'Oh yeah, Jason, just like that.' I heard someone moan and I froze. No, it can't be. Jason would never cheat on me. There's probably a very logic explanation for all of this. Like... Shit I can't think of one. The only way to be sure is to open the door. So I did.

Inside I saw Jason kissing some other girl, naked. They were all over each other and I'm sure they'd still be if I didn't slam the door aaginst the wall. When he turned around I could finally see the girl's face clearly.

I gasped when i remembered who it was. Stephanie. She and Jason were working at the same company and have been spending a lot of time together. They always blamed it on some project but now I know what had really been going on.

'Amy, baby-' He started. How dare he still call me baby? Ugh I can't believe him.

I was still shocked and tried to find the right words. My lips started trembling and I was on the verge of crying, but I didn't want them to see.

Aftef a few minutes of silence I finally got the courage to say something. Shit, I'm gonna regret this in a few hours but at the moment I don't care. I'm so done with him.

'Why would you do this to me, to us? We were so happy together and you just threw all of it away fot what? So you could have some fun with that bitch?

Steph gasped and I noticed her face began to get red. Before she could snap back I continued.

'You know, Jason? You did some messed up things during our relation, but this really is the final straw. We're over.'

'Amy I... I'm sorry, okay? I didn't mean to do this it's just.. You were away for two weeks and we didn' t think you would notice. Please, don't leave me. I love you.' Rolling my eyes I sighed. Did he really just pull that one on me? Fucking asshole.

'This isn't the first time this has happened and we both know that it won't be the last. I should've dumped you and your awful excuses a long time ago.' Somehow I felt relieved. Relieved that I no longer had worry about him cheating again. It didn't last long though as sadness soon started taking over.

'I promise you-' What part about breaking up did he not understand?

'Goodbye, Jason.'

Tears started streaming down my face and I quickly turned around. As I was running to the front door I got stuck on a picture of the two of us. Not wanting to think about this anymore, I threw it against the wall. It's not that he'd be needing it anymore. I thought.

With that thought I stormed off, ready to leave all of this behind

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Just a small disclaimer :

This is the first book I've ever written on this platform and I'm incredibly excited about it! I'm also not a native english speaker so I'm very sorry if I make any spelling mistakes. If I do, feel free to point them out :) Hopefully you will all enjoy this story. <3

I'm also super sorry if some parts may be too long/too short, as I said this is my first book ever so bear with me :)

-TQ-