beginner feelings
she thought it was nothing but it was everything, she somehow made the tears running down here eyes dissapear and when asked how she was; her eyes tingled and her nose burned but nothing happened, there was silence, i’m alright was whispered; barely hearable, the pain felt greater when alone in a car, it was something about a tight closed space, it felt safe, why couldnt it all end, the pain, the hurt, but what good would it do, pouring your pain to the hands of another being, it became chronic, wanting to cry deep down yet having something tell you there was no good reason for your tears; it tears a person apart, it was an internal battle not understanding your own feelings, thinking it is nothing; continuing to laugh and making the happiness believable, everything was fine but deep inside there was screaming, a cry for help that no one could hear, not that it was their fault, a world wanting to be expressed but not a word being said, she drowned herself in fantasies, in and out of reality, her escape, it was all that could save the broken heart and the descending soul, wishing for change while barring the weight of the world, the pain of many and the hurt of all, one person and the life of many
