Memories
I never thought my life would end up like this. I never thought this day would come this soon. I slowly pulled myself out of bed feeling my heart breaking even more with each breath. Dragging myself to the kitchen I noticed how cold the house feels. Normally by this time Emmitt would have been up starting coffee for me and getting breakfast ready for the kids before they went to school.
But not anymore. Never again. I sadly thought to myself as the first tear of many to come today rolled down my face. Sitting down with the warm cup of black coffee in front of me I let memories of us take over.
***4 years ago***
I collapsed into the rocking chair at my sister's house with my newborn son in my arms completely exhausted from his antics the night before. Everytime I walked away from him it was as if he could sense it and begin crying causing my milk to drop and slowly leak through my clothes. Single mom life was not what all those Facebook single mom groups make it out to be.
I pull my breast out of my maternity shirt and begin feeding my greedy little man when I hear voices approaching. The door swings open allowing my sister and her boyfriend Brian to step inside laughing somewhere behind me. I turned my head around to look over the back of the chair I was sitting in to say hello and my gaze is matched by the most amazing blue eyes I've ever seen. We must have been staring for a while because my sister clears her throat once... Or maybe twice.
"Hey Rae you ok?" She said giggling like a school girl while her boyfriend grinned at us knowingly.
"Oh...um good.. Yeah good" I studdered breaking the trance that was holding me and looking to her. "What about you?"
"We had an great time at the movies and on our way home we ran into this weirdo" she said while laughing and throwing her thumb over her shoulder. "We decided to bring him back here with us for the bon fire tonight since he never comes around anymore."
"Is that so?" I replied slowly taking my time to run my eyes over the stranger that continued to watch me. He was probably an inch or so taller than me. His brown hair was cut so short it made me wonder if he was military. I let my eyes slide lower taking in his perfect physique. He had a thickness of muscle to him but not so much he looked like The Terminator. He just looked strong and sturdy, like a tree I couldn't wait to climb. God my hormones were definitely coming back to life quickly after this pregnancy.
"So are you going to introduce me or am I just going to have to address him as Christy's weirdo?" I asked her causing a smirk to form on the strangers face.
"Oh my bad." She said in mock offense. Then in her overly dramatic polite voice she says"Rae this is my weirdo Emmitt and Emmitt this is my sister and the house asshole Rae." She says while pulling poor Brian along behind her into their room.
"The asshole huh?" He says with a grin that sent a lustful current straight to my core.
"Yeah that's me I guess. Hard job but somebody's got to keep Christy in line" I reply grinning as well. Standing up causing Jaxon to be released from the seal he had created to eat, I laid him down in the bassinet beside me and turned around hand fully extended"It's nice to meet you Emmitt."
His mouth slacks a little before he quickly regains his composure. Taking my hand in his he says "Nice to meet you Rae. I have a feeling your going to give me a lot of troubled." A slow grin forms as his eyes bore into mine.
"Why do you think that?" I asked slightly confused. "I dont get people in trouble."
His smile widens as he closes the space between us and leans down to my ear. "I didnt say get me in trouble I said give me trouble. Although I think I might like the trouble you give me." He whispers in almost a purr.
Before I can respond he pulls away from me and begins to walk away. I stand there floored. He really just tried me like that. Just as I was about to respond he stops before walking into my sisters room. "And Rae I hope to see you at the bon fire tonight. But if you would do me a favor amd change shirts. I'd like to talk more but its a little distracting," he said with a chuckle before he disappeared around the corner.
'This motherfucker can't be serious right now' I thought angrily to myself as I walked over to where Jaxon was sleeping. I bend down to pick up my sleeping angel when something catches my eye. I feel the color begin to drain out of my face as I turn my head to the mirror beside me.
Fuck. My. Life. All I see is an engorged breast hanging out of the front of my shirt where Jaxon had been feeding. I just had a full blown flirty conversation with the sexiest man alive with my tit hanging out. Good job Rae. Good job.
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Pulling my mind back to the present I can't help but to chuckle a little which causes more tears to fall. This was going be the longest day of my life and it had only begun.
After drying my face I take a deep breath in and get my nerves ready for what was to come. I walk upstairs quietly and open the door to Jaxons room. The sun was peaking through the blinds as his blonde hair stuck out in so many different directions. His room looked like a tornado had blown through it. But that's typical for a 4 year old. Noticing the lump beside him in his toddler bed I smiled knowing what I would find. Baby Lucy my 2 year old was snuggled up beside him. She had been attached to Jax since she was born. I heard a noise from behind me and turn to see my 3 year old Ana standing there.
"Mommy. I thirsty." She said sleepily. Scooping her into my arms I walk her downstairs to grab her cup. I fill it with milk and sit down holding her in my arms.
"Mommy where my daddy?" She asked innocently.
Fighting the tears I hugged her tighter. "Daddy is with the angels now remember?" I could barely whisper.
"But I dont want my daddy with angels. I want my daddy." She said as a tear rolled down her face.
"I know sweetie. I know," my voice was breaking. I didn't know what else to say so I hugged her even harder and rocked her as she continued to cry . In my 33 years of life I had never felt this helpless. I let Ana cry until she fell silently back asleep. Looking at the clock I saw it was only 5:30 in the morning. I carried Ana back upstairs to her room and laid her in her bed. Emmitt had always made it a point that the kids were under no circumstances allowed to sleep in our room after Ana had crawled in bed one night and caused him to amost have a heart attack when he woke me up by sliding into me, as he did frequently, not realizing she was laying on the other side of me. Needless to say that was an interesting situation.
Laying Ana down I decided to go watch the news for a while and see what updates they had. I knew it would be full of stories about the "Wolf Wars" as the media was calling it.
Flipping on the television I feel myself breaking as a picture of the love of my life flashes onto the screen.
" ....as 34 year old Emmitt Hinds will be laid to rest today. Hinds was highly influential in the Wolf Wars and was working towards building peace treaties between our government and Pack Alpha--" -click- I turned it off. I couldn't listen to that shit anymore. The Pack Alphas claimed they wanted peace, that rouges were to blame for the thousands of fatalities that have occurred since we discovered their existence 3 years ago. I knew better though. I knew the truth. I knew an Alpha had killed my husband.... and when I found out which one, he would die.
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A knock at my door brought me out of the light sleep I had fallen into. Rolling off the couch the door opens as Christy walks in.
"Hey sis, how are you holding up?" She asks me. I knew I didn't need to respond. She already knew my world was crumbling down around me.
"What time is it?" I ask making my way to the kitchen for more coffee.
"It's 7:30 hun. I figured you might need help with the kids this morning." She replied. There was caution in her voice. I could tell she was watching me closely as of I was going to break at any moment.
"Yeah thanks," I tell her. "Their clothes aren't laid out or anything. I was going to I just...." I couldn't finish my sentence. Looking at her I held back ever little tear that was threatening to show itself.
"Its fine sis, really, why don't you go take a long bath and get yourself ready. Brian will be here in a few and he can help me feed the kids amd get them ready ok."
All I could do was manage a slow nod and mumble a "thank you" before walking to our bedroom. Closing the door staring at the half made bed in front of me I realized it wasn't our room anymore. This was my room. Sitting down on the bed I grabbed the picture sitting I the nightstand. It was a picture of me that Emmitt had taken the night he proposed. He said it was the best night of his life. It was the night he promised he'd never leave me.
***** 3 years ago****
"Hey babe what are you doing?" Emmitt asked me as he walked into my room.
"Waiting on you to come to bed," I replied slightly annoyed pulling my eyes from my book to shoot him a look of frustration. I see him aiming his phone at me.
"Why are you taking pictures of me?" I ask annoyed.
"Because I want to be able to remember this," he said with a chuckle. Slowly he moved towards me with an unfamiliar look in his eyes. "I need you to get up and get dressed. Don't ask questions. Just put this on and come outside." He told me firmly tossing some loose black yoga pants, a long sleeve black shirt, black socks, and my black Adidas on the bed.
"Are we robbing a bank or something?" I say confused by the choice in clothing he picked out for me.
"Nope." He said with a grin as he walked out of the door leaving me to get dressed. God I loved that man.
I dressed quickly and found him outside. "What are we doing Jax is inside asleep?"
"Christys got him until we get back"
"Ok, what are we doing Emmitt its 12:30 at night?" I asked slightly nervous about what crazy idea he had brewing in his mind.
"I want to show you something," he replied nonchalantly. "Let's go for a walk."
We walked around for 20 mintues when we reached a chain link fence that surrounded the old mill. There were quite a few of them in our town. They had been abandoned for years and the town just hadn't gotten to tearing them down yet.
Confused I look at Emmitt. "What are we doing here?"
"You said you wanted to go inside one day and check it out so lets go."
My jaw dropped open. "I didn't mean break and enter Emmitt!"
He laughed, "Its not breaking and entering if you have a key babe."
This man was going to be the death of me.
"Ok heres the thing. Stay close and step where I step. The floors are rotted out in places and I don't want you to get hurt." He said sternly. I love when he gets all commanding on me.
"Sir yes sir," I said with a mock salute. Shanking his head we enter the first building. It was amazing inside. There wasn't much there but the place had a story that couldn't be ignored. Going out of the back of the building we walked around to the side of the building to a ladder leading to the top of the building. Making our way up slowly and carefully I look up to see the huge tower above me. Taking may hand we begin to climb. My nose fills with the smell of rotting wood and God only knows what else. Reaching the top Emmitt pulls himself through what used to be a hatch and turns around to pull me up with him. As he helps me regain my balance I look over his shoulder and look out above the city. The stars seemed so close from up here.
"Oh God baby this is beautiful." I said leaning into his arms.
"I'm glad you like it." He said pulling me close. "Come here let's sit down. Watch your step some of this wood is rotted right there." He said pointing.
I followed him over to the window in the tower. There was no glass and the wind was coming in from all directions. I had never felt this free in my life.
We sat in silence for what seemed like forever before he spoke.
"I need to tell you something Rae" he said soberly jolting me out of my blissful state quickly replacing it with concern.
Seeing the look on my face he chuckles to himself and kisses the creases that have now formed on my forehead. "Quit freaking out. Its all over your face. I just need you to hear me out before you say anything ok."
"Um.. Ok..." I was nervous and pissed at the same time. I knew he was to good to be true, I thought, I swear if he cheated on me I'm going to push him off of this...
"I know its only been a year Rae," he began cutting off my murderous thoughts. "And I know you've been hurt so bad in the past. I know you worry that Mitch will never change and Jax won't have a dad. I know you cry about it sometimes wondering what you did wrong. I just want to tell you that, well those are his problems. He picked drugs over you guys amd hes going to regret it for ths rest of his life. But I kinda glad glad he left because I'm in love with you Rae and I love Jax as my own." He reaches into his pocket and pulls out a small black bag. Reaching in and pulling out a simple single diamond ring he holds it out towards me. "So I guess what I'm saying is will you let me be your husband and a daddy to Jax?"
"You not going to leave us?" I asked in all seriousness as tears roll down my cheeks.
"Rae heaven nor hell could take me away from you. I promise "
I didnt realize I was holding my breath until I responded throwing my arms around him. "Yes, yes, yes," I said before slamming my lips onto his. Climbing into his lap I became completely oblivious of my surroundings. I could feel my love for him growing within me driving my passion higher and higher. Tugging at the bottom of his shirt I pulled back long enough to get it over his head while he reach for the hem of mine tossing it on top of his before grabbing my was and pulling me closer until my core was grinding against the length causing a moan to escape. Working his lips down my neck I reached between us and pulled the drawstring loose allowing me to reach into his track pants and wrap my hand around his engorged shaft. I was rewarded with a small gasp as I ran my hand along it before freeing it. Running his hand up my back he pulled me forward as he fell backward allowing our lips to meet again. I leaned onto my knees and reached behind tugging to waistband at my pants just enough to expose my ass. I could feel the juices pooling within me . If I didn't get him inside of me soon I was going to explode. Breaking the kiss I straightened my knees while straddling him pushing my pants down more while his eyes continued to bore into mine. This was it. This was the other half of my soul. He reached between us steadying his hard cock while I held my pants out of the way and began to lower myself onto him. I felt his thicknes begin to expand me in a way I had never known with another man. Emmitt let out a hiss and sat upright causing the waistband of my pants to bunch between us and press up against my clit.
"God Rae your so fucking perfect and tight. Your always so fucking wet for me."
His words alone could have sent me over the edge. I began to move as his mouth claimed mine once more. Grabbing my ass he began to rock me harder. I could feel my body tightening and it prepared for my release.
"Does that feel good baby" he huskily whispered into my ear.
"Mm Hmm." Was all I managed to get out.
"How good does it feel baby?"
"So good. Emmitt so fucking good." I say as he begins to push deeper inside of me.
"Your mine Rae. This is mine. Forever. Do you understand." He said with power in his voice that in had never heard before.
"Yes baby yes" I almost scream and he picks up the pace lifting me up as he begins to pound into me.
"Say it Rae. Who do you belong to? Who does this tight, wet pussy belong to?"
"Fuck Emmitt you I belong to you." I say letting go of everything i had been holding back.
"Fuck I'm going to cum inside your sweet pussy ok baby. You want that don't you?"
"Yes please please" I say as I feel my body begin to tighten.
"Fuck Rae" he says as I feel his cock twitching and releasing inside of me as he thrust into me once more allowing my release to come. He continues to stroke inside me while I ride the high of my orgasm .
"I love you Rae. You've made me the happiest man alive." He barely whispers as he holds me while the wind blows through the tower wrapping around us like a blanket.
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