Self-speaking
Do you even know me? Of course you don't cause I'm a little shy and caused less attraction, right?
I have no idea about what I'm speaking. The details aren't relevant to each other and maybe confusing.
#1: 20/1/2020 - 11:00A.M
- Recently I have been talking (literally "cyberchatting") to friends in both real life and on Facebook (most are girls). I feel somehow umcomfortable when chatting with them. I'm a boy so chatting with many girls makes me feel doubtful about myself and my disciplines are not working. I feel bad about myself (I apologize for using the word "feel" so many times).
- It is close to Tet Holiday and I have got to prepare, clean and decorate my house for absolutely). It is tiring and boring AF but I understand that my parents are way more exhausted than I am, so I have to help them (which is not so interesting).
- There is barely anything fun when just staying at home, lying on a couch and texting all day. But sadly I don't have many friends so there is noone for me to actually talk with. I only behave shy all the time.
- "The weather is awesome! Why don't you go out and breathe the early morning atmosphere?", reminding myself. I love taking pictures of flowers, landscapes and the moon (actually I have a Sony camera with a feature called "SuperZoom", which is the reason I bought it, and sometimes I consider it as my "Cosmic Eye").
#2: 25/1/2020 10:53A.M
- It's Tet holiday and I'm still lying home but I have just taken some portraits for my sister and my family. It only lasts for 5 days so I have to hasten myself to do more meaningful. By the way, I love listening to music, especially EDMs.
- My New-year-budget is now over 1 million! Harry Potter Set is not so unreachable anymore. However, I still need to wait for some days to get enough money for it (it costs 2 million, I know, I only said "not so unreachable").
- On this year's Tet I won't and won't be able to go anywhere far from my house. How sad when my friends (very few) can go out for relaxation and chilling with their mates without being restricted or kind of.
- Tet is an occasion for everyone to reunite, to surround their kitchen and to review the previous year. In my thoughts there's nothing more beautiful than friends, but I don't have the ability to make some new ones (or at least I didn't tried) and I reject participating in the modern society. I'm way doubtful about myself, leading to a lack of reliability on me.
- I don't know what I'm doing presently, just randomly writing some words on Inkitt and satisfying myself by reading a book (I consider it as my close friend because book only reads itself without listening to anyone).
- I always feel faulty when I'm lazy and reversed. That's why I can't write this long. How boring! People may distinct me from others because of the way I behave and my appearance doesn't fit the trend at all. Feeling grieved apparently.
- I wish I could have an iPhone (my preference because iPhone can record videos smoothly with less vibrations and has the best audio (microphone) quality) or an old flagship to satisfy my photography passion as smartphones are convenient and flagships are powerful, all compacted in one small device that is versatile, durable and powerful enough.
#3: 26/1/2020 8:51P.M
- Another special-but-usual day. It's the second day of Tet and I gotta do something. Staying home won't help useless being more active. Three days remaining until school time. However, my lucky money is now reached 1 million and 9 hundred thousand dong, which is only 100k left to my dream!
- I love taking photos, especially on iPhone because of the portrait mode. It's an amazing feature that is available on many devices, but I prefer the iPhone's most. It gives me a nice blurred background to enlight the main character and I think it's dope! I don't know why iPhone is still my preference while it's "a little bit" overpriced and many versatile, durable and underpriced Android phones out there still can't convince me to buy. Maybe I just blindly love the Apple icon at the back of the phone or because of the iOS' user-friendly interface and automatically optimized camera settings.
#4: 24/2/2020 9:02 P.M
- Now saying what, my stories are unseen. How sad it is! However, to get used to with it, I have to master one thing: INVINCIBLY RELIABLE on myself. Don't actually dismiss everything, instead, sorting out things that is futuristically important. Just ignore what the others say atd concentrate on my own business. Never catch trends (which is quite hard to avoid doing) cause these trends maybe very funny, but nonsense and will all vanish in a tick. Tde importance is that I have to try my best and be really into it without getting bored or so. After getting over that hard-to-digest period, I will definitely reach my aim. Something is impossible (and many things is hard) - this seems nonsense but it motivates me a lot.
