The tears of oceans
First of all, I know nothing about surfing other than it’s trying to stand by vertically on a board while riding the ocean wave. I DID spend a lot of time in the Surfer community as a teenager however as I loved their beach parties, their liberalist approach to a number of freedoms, such as cannabis, (but not all, and rightly so), a decent, warm, fleece hoodie, and largely, the ‘ethos’ of the subtribe.
However, I DO know much about mental health, being a victim, not an observer.
I am a long range schizophrenic tour of duty red cap.
I am a medal wearing depressionist surely, for the numbers of lows I’ve wallowed in over the many years of an incredible sense of utter failure, and demon voicess from tormenting spirits due to too much LSD. (Probably because I went a bit left field of Surfism in my teenage years. I wanted to be Buddha at boarding school. Be careful what you wish for children... in case it comes true).
I then nuggled down to a vocation... but, being asthmatic, a military career was never on the cards.
However... the ‘arts’ most definitely were. I excelled in English, theatre, performance, film making, photography, and ‘Kung Fu Art’.
‘Kung Fu Art’ was my thing. ‘Kung Fu’, I was taught by way of the Shaolin Monks T-shirt visiting Bournemouth one year, meant ‘Skill through effort’.
I could, as a practicing Christian, totally vibe with that.
In fact, I’ve always found martial arts rather special. Intriguing. Mysterious, and wonderful... And that’s no doubt the whole allure, and its success. I’ve never had a dojo, or hardly been trained in any. Like Bruce Lee, I don’t have a belt in any martial art, and like Bruce Lee, my belt is to hold my trousers up.
I did a spot of Karate in my youth with my dad, but the class room was big, and as a boy I was disturbed, because I felt surrounded by ‘warriors of a cult’.
I tried Judo, but was allergic to the crash mat, and I hated the way the sensei emphasised the word ‘technique’ ALL the time... Yet, like a good teacher does, the lesson remained.
Martial arts, in its idealised form, is all about ‘technique’, and there are really quite a staggering number of ways to harm or stop a man physically, the more depending on how lithe, athletic and creative you’re prepared to be in a scary hostile situation. If you haven’t run for your life in the first place... Which is the absolute teaching of all sensible martial arts teachers in the field of weapons. We are not superman... We aren’t all Neo, and can dodge bullets. We’re real people, often brutalised by some tragic moments with a thug(s) in our formative years, that decide learning some basic ‘techniques’ of self-defence might be a sensible idea in light of clearly ‘not very Christian individuals’.
In Christianity, you might be interested to know, Jesus said ‘To even strike someone on the cheek is evil’.
This is around the point he goes onto say how to be perfect in the eyes of God.
The way to be perfect in the eyes of God is to ‘love your enemy’.
(After all, what good proffers from those you already love that you don’t know and have already?).
This is on surface level utter psychosis.
Love your enemy? Are you insane? The very reason he’s called ‘your enemy’ is because he’s wronged you in a major, uncalled for way, and you want to ice and dice him.
However... Christians must take the notion VERY seriously... And do you know what... it’s not psychosis in the end... it’s simply humane and a way to cope. If society was a complex web of daily shoot outs and killings like in very small and localised regions of the world, humanity would be unsustainable.
Revenge, is not a Jedi concept, indeed.
And a path to the dark side is to revel in hatred... I know, because, like Mace Windu, my light sabre should be purple.
I have embraced the true scope of delinquent power, and foolish living. And one day, on a Summer’s day, I was sat in a chair with Hughie, on what was allegedly LSD, in Hell, listening to him sing Bob Marley. And trust me, it wasn’t his singing.
Since then, everyday has been a crawl of effort back to some semblance of hope, and truth, and reality. I’ve met so many druggie morons who all talk the same shit day in day out at places thinking they’re so knowing and wise, when really, they’re usually very paranoid, second rate philosophers who would rather be strung out on drugs than engage with the sufferance of fortitude which is correct business practice.
My only Christian justification for this is that Jesus said you can have one of two masters... God, or money.
I sincerely believe if I had never got into smoking weed, I would / could, probably be a very rich man by now.
But I didn’t.
I am a capitalist uber failure.
But a theologian winner at levels behind your current imagination or knowledge of scope.
Let me explain all... (You’ll like this).
“In the beginning, God created the Heavens and the Earth”.
Wo... Already, we’re confused in a warping paradox of confusion.
‘In the beginning’, ‘God’.
Okay... So God has no beginning seemingly, he just is.
Whilst this is concrete biblical acceptance, it is philosophically bamboozling to a rational mind.
Let’s just say we’re going to carry on from here by saying ‘Let us suppose we’re living in a divinely imagined concept, and the scriptures, is the manual’.
Wait... Wo, wo... No, it’s too much. Already I can’t eat shell fish, and must stone to death various women.
It’s all too much... SURELY there has to be a get out clause?!?!?! Otherwise ‘I’M DEAD TOO!!!!’. (I am reminded of the priest from The Simpsons who says ‘Technically, even going for a pee is against the rules’).
Phew... Jesus Christ comes along, and boy, does he orate like a major long term winner. Saves a few slappers from a stonage, creates meat and booze from nowhere, walks on water, raises the dead, and a whole host of other neat party tricks that are BOUND to make you really popular and trendy.
A few hundred years later, some rustic lad with a penchant for young girls and beheadings has his own stab at divinity, and look how well he did! He cracked the moon with his finger, don’t you know.
Well, what kind of nonsense is all this people are believing, EVEN IF IT WAS TRUE.
So my grandfather was a war hero (in my eyes at least) and helped save the world during a bitter conflict for world peace... Why aren’t my family raving and celebrating every birthday he had like psychos thinking they’re eternal for around seventy years.
You’ll notice, it’s often the elderly who are the regular church goers... and recovering drug addicts.
I am increasingly the former, and less the latter.
I am only addicted to three stimulants long term.
Cigarettes, lager, and cannabis.
They are physically killing me... Slowly. A long, slow, degrading slump towards the nadir of fatal demise.
But I will say this.
ON THE WHOLE... Life has been worth it.
Yes, the evil bits were dark and rubbish... Very frightening, nasty, brutal, short... As you’d expect from evil.
But what I personally delight in is the genius of man... And so I’m going to let you into a very profound theory...
If I am right, I am right... and it will be horrific, and awful.
If I am wrong, I have no clue what I’m going on about, and should be shot, immediately, for tarnishing an otherwise great an awesome tradition.
But there is so much confusion in the world about ‘certain matters’, that I feel, as a well raised, well educated middle aged father, long term off any hard drugs and that nefarious business, a ‘new theory’ is required to allocate a perspective.
A perspective you might not have.
A perspective, that might have some validity to it.
Let me put forward my notion in basic terms.
In the prophecies of the New Testament book ‘The book of Revelation’, there is a future (arguably, especially back then), body of ‘Jews’ who are not Jews, but are liars, and are the synagogue of Satan.
MILLIONS OF PEOPLE HAVE BEEN KILLED OVER INCORRECT EXEGESIS OF THIS ONE PASSAGE ALONE IN HISTORY.
Revelation 2:9
I know thy works and tribulation and poverty (but thou art rich), and I know the blasphemy of them that say they are Jews and are not, but are the synagogue of Satan.
And Revelation 3:9
Behold, I will make them of the synagogue of Satan, who say they are Jews and are not, but do lie — behold, I will make them to come and worship at thy feet, and to know that I have loved thee.
Right...
So let's get one thing clear IMMEDIATELY. These Jews, are not real Jews...
How do we know who's a real Jew or not? Are you Jewish? Is he? Her? Them?
If someone says they're Jewish, I'm inclined to believe them, unless... they behave in a rather non-kosher manner... Such as a decent Jew would never do.
Hmmm... They're liars... Pseudo-Jews who lie for a living perhaps?
OMG... Modern flash revelation time... (Such as was the perception when it hit me)...
What if... 'Hollywood' is the 'Synagogue of Satan'?
Hollywood is known to be run by 'Jews'... and was certainly founded by them.
A true Christian is not really antisemitic at all unless they're from a very extreme and bizarre sect which twists things out of proportion, forgetting that 144,000 of the descendants of the twelve tribes of Israel are the most sacred of most of the chosen to be saved.
Hollywood, establishes a global dominance of ideology, all of it, hugely, based on fiction.
I.e. Lies.
I know what you're thinking... What a killjoy I must be to hate the wonderful and fabulous joy of Hollywood movies... but what am I being put through?
Horror? Not for me actually.
Comedy? Comedy can often involve huge doses of schadenfreude.
Musicals? Is life really always happy?
Action? Are you aware how many people are depicted to be killed in the history of cinema?
But I am not hating... I LOVED CINEMA SO MUCH I DEVOTED MY EDUCATION TO CINEMA, with five years higher education in 'the arts'.
Yet... Having been enlightened with an actual halo via the universal ruling intergalactic omniscient power by 'God' for reasons you had to be there to understand, and calling him 'God' as that appears to be his most commonly acknowledged general moniker, I can't let this theory slide.
Cinema teaches quite a lot of immorality. Porn hugely comes from it for a start via lurid channels. So it is no surprise old Spielberg is so successful for making awesome movies which 'give us the illusion of good'.
But where is the illusion of 'good' in a 'Saw movie'?
It's a hideous examination of the most awful things in the human imagination.
Ostensibly, a horror film, like many films, is a vicarious experience through a traumatic concept proposed as real by illusionists.
What is another form of word for illusion?
A lie.
Why do we call people 'stars'?
Well, it goes as far back it seems beyond Chaucer, to the apocryphal 'Gospel of Judas', where, amid its bizarre and wonderful things, it talks of souls being like stars in the Heavens.
No, not being canon, far people know about this...
What's more:
It's WRITTEN AS A MOVIE SCRIPT.
With walk on parts and speech entries.
Is this not 'the great insight' the truth seekers of religious purity have been seeking?
What are we doing engaging our brains with fiction on a regular basis, even spending our lives to create it, if a 'lie' is a damnable offence?
I'm not saying this to annoy anyone, or ruin anything cool and fun... but my thinking is, if we're saved, and so many others are saved, yet so many are damned, how do we know what's going on if all we're doing is plugged into the matrix mind coder night after night over yarns, often so BRILLIANTLY ENVISAGED (There's the trick, there's the power), so they may become more rich and powerful, over ideologies that aren't 'really very Christian'.
Don't believe me?
How many awesome Christian directors can you name me who aren't called 'Mad' Mel?
Is the teaching of Hollywood biblical? Or is it American ideological? Is there a difference anymore?
Good conduct and ethical morality is everything to God's believers. We don't always get it right, we often screw up, but we don't go out of our way to establish an elaborate deception by which to ply our coffers unless we REALLY know what we're doing.
And if you're one of them... I would consider you powerful, dangerous, and possibly rather scary, at the ideological level.
I know, because I was one... and I didn't even make it... God took me in another direction I couldn't really help.
But with the power these organisations have over us in the story telling, and thus, tribal morality notions of cultures, and the sheer EVIL so oft presented online in dark corners and major multiplexes, the theory does make you wonder...
And I will cry with sadness if I'm right... and I will cry with sadness if I'm wrong...
It's a mother of an apocalyptic thought, and it terrifies me I might be right.
It would not be right of me as a human believer however, who has studied the book of prophecy in some depths for many years, not to disclose my theory in light of the more pressing requirement for 'human salvation'.
Neo broke the Matrix by proving it existed.
Then the Matrix made a film about how he did it. Allegorically.
It's time to meditate on peace, and who's really in charge around this world... because all those who went into the film world I knew around here included many atheists, homosexuals, and generally assorted left winger bohemian types.
Do not walk blind in modernity my friends thinking 'it's all good'... because as we know, the world is allegedly ruled by dark Satanic forces, and if I was wanting to rule the world and brainwash the people by using the geniuses to promote my vision against all foreign contenders, then yes... That's how I'd play it... I just don't need that much stress or complexity in my life to rule a world.
I just like knowing there's a God of some description, who has healed me and protected me many times.
