Loveshot

JUNGKOOK'S POV

They say that everyone has a story that will break your heart.

My boyfriend Kim Taehyung had cancer. His hair had fallen out but he still looks beautiful in my eyes. I remember when it first started, we were at our apartment watching our favorite movie while cuddling when I notice some ugly bruises on his arms.

"hey baby, where did you get that bruises?" I asked looking at him concerned.

"W-what? Don't mind it love, I accidentally hit my arms in the table last night" he said but he looked so nervous while saying that.

I didn't mind it at first but in the following days he looked so weak and his nose bleeds often so I decided to confront him.

" Baby, what's happening to you? Please tell me the truth. I can't stand seeing you like that" I looked at him straight in the eyes

"Gguk I have to tell you something" he said as the tears falls in his eyes.

I was so nervous, I just want to cry my heart out.

" Go on baby, I'm listening"

" I was diagnosed with acute lymphatic leukemia since I was 3 years old" his tears continously falling.

" Please don't leave me ggukie" he begged.

I cried with him together and said " I won't leave you baby, where gonna get through this together"

He started chemotherapy immediately, to stop the cancer from getting any worse. It went well but it was hard. He was in the hospital on Monday, Wednesday and Friday receiving treatment.

Life was back to normal for a while until one day I saw our hyungs sitting on our couch which was odd, but when I saw their tears, I knew that my worst fear had come true. The cancer was back.

I remember Taehyung crying his heart out. I can see his pain, his suffering. If only I can take his sickness away I will gladly do it but I know that I can't. Now, I feel so useless. All I have to do is to be with him and to support him.

"Stop crying my love, it's not good for you" I looked at him sadly.

"Im sorry ggukie, you have to see me like this"

I wiped his tears and kissed him passionately " You don't have to say sorry my love, all I want for you is to get better"

The day of the surgery, our hyungs and I woke up early to accompany Taehyung to the hospital. In the last 3 years, I had seen too much of this hall, the sickening smell of death each room. We sat and waited for the Doctor to come out. As we sat down, fear consumed us.

" Taehyung is out of surgery now and the medicine will wear off soon" Dr. Kang began.

" I'm sorry, the tumor has grown too large. It has grown all down one side of his heart. There is nothing we can do now"

As I heard those word, my eyes was filled with tears. Those words meant that it was time to stop fighting. I wanted to leave, I wanted to run away from all of these but I know that I couldn't, I made a promise that no matter what happen I'm not going to leave him, now is not the time to do that. My baby needs me.

I went to our room, as I came closer I realized that he was crying. I sat down on our bed and held him in my arms.

"Baby, tell me why are you crying" I said.

"Ggukie, it's just not fair" he blubbered.

"What's not fair my love?" I asked

"Why am I going to die?"

I felt like my heart stops beating for a moment. I obviously want to avoid the subject. I don't want him to know but deep down inside, I wish that I didn't know either.

"W-well baby, you know you're an angel right? God says he wants you back in his arms." I said while keeping my tears from falling.

"B-but why so early ggukie?" And then he started to cry too. He buried his head in my chest and I started to cry too. Afterwards there was an understanding between us. He was ready, but I'm not.

Suddenly, a certain peacefulness filled the room, and I knew that Taehyung had breathed his last breath.

I looked outside and smiled sadly. Even though I know that it hurts, I know that I need to let him go. I knew that Taehyung was no longer scared or hurt, and it was better this way.

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