The Lost Luna.

Hope was 34 and divorced. She has 5 kids to take care of by herself. She has been trying to battle depression for a long time now. ...Hope was with her ex husband Jose for almost 13 years and officially married for the last 5 years of that. They had 5 beautiful children from their marriage, 4 boys and just 1 little princess.

He was always emotionally, mentally and verbally abusive towards her. During their first 5 years together he was physically abusive to her. Jose cheated on her all the time and didn't even care about the pain he was causing her and the children. For some reason she felt like she deserved everything he would do to her.

He wasn't very nice to their children either. He would always cuss and yell at them. He never spent time with them like a father should. He never liked taking them out or to his family get togethers. They all felt like he was ashamed of them. Hope always hated herself for staying with him after everything he would do but she thought she wasn't strong enough to do it on her own. Jose knew that too and would use that to his advantage.

A couple days before her 33rd birthday Jose went out on a Saturday night to go drinking with his disgusting friends and never came back home. Days passed and hope tried calling him non stop but he would never answer to her. She worried so much and feared he was arrested and may have got deported.It wouldn't be the first time he had problems with immigration officers. She saved his butt last time and stopped him from being deported.

Finally after 3 weeks passed he answered her and said he didn't want to be with them no more and for her to leave him alone. He said he wanted to be happy and with her and the kids he is not. Hope's heart was finally crushed to nothing. She dropped to her knees and started to cry. She always felt so weak when she would cry. She didn't know how she was going to break this horrible news to her babies. Their youngest just turned 3 because his birthday was the day after hers and he would never understand why daddy didn't love them enough to stay with them. He may have treated them all like they were nothing but they still loved him very much.

Jose was the one that worked outside the house and brought home the paycheck. Hope would babysit but only made enough for gas, household stuff and to wash their laundry. He would always remind her how much better he was than her. He always told her she couldn't survive without him and nobody would want her with how fat and ugly she is plus with 5 kids she would never find anyone. Sadly she believed in what he always told her.

Hope has always been a thick girl and then woman. After 5 kids , battling depression and everything else she was at her biggest weight near the end of her marriage of 300 lbs. Yes, she tried dieting and sometimes just starving herself but nothing ever seemed to help her. She was always shy and very self conscious. Plus always being made fun of when she was younger by her family and at school didn't help her at all. She was bullied in school all the time because her weight, skin color and how poor her family was.

Hope is Native American and is around 5'4. She has chocolate brown eyes with glasses. She had long straight brown hair that hung down to the middle of her back. She had lost some weight since her divorce but not as much as she wished. She was at about 220 lbs. She wasn't very big in her chest almost a C cup but she did have a very plump butt. That was one of the only things her ex would ever compliment her on. He always said he loved big butts.

She knew it was going to be difficult to get over this but she couldn't give up. She has 5 beautiful kids that need her to stay strong and fight. Hope loves her babies so much and does and will do anything to show them that. They are her only reasons she feels to keep her head up and move on ,no matter how much she hurts.

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