Chapter One: Black Sheep
To his father, he was a waste of life, everyday life was miserable and just the sight of his son was nauseating.
For his mother, he was a child inside the body of a man, forever playing with his toys and complaining why his life is a total mess, maybe she was to soft with him, she did not wanted him to turn out this way, but things never go our way, don't they?
- So..
You were fired again, as expected..
But i'll pretend i'm shocked.
Breakfast is as typical as it can be, his father drinks his coffe before jumping into his car and going to work for a guy he hates, but he does not express this hate as much as he expresses to his son.
- Don't worry, he will find another job.
Ain't that right?
No he won't, and the dad knows he will live with his son until he's forty, he expected that he wouldn't grow up to be some youtuber with an ego and delusions about being famous, truly the kinda stuff you see on a Dr.Phil episode.
- I'm going to work, have a nice day you two.
In his mind, the nobody was scheming some really dark things, he wouldn't verbalize his hate for his family, but sure would imagine them dying in a million different ways, maybe that is how he deals with everything surrounding him, he always got lost in his own world, traveling through his non sense and believing his own lies, later that night he plans to kill his father and rape his mother, and then commit suicide.
"At least i won't die a virgin."
He thought.
- Why don't you go talk to your sister, you know she is getting married and..
Hey i'm talking to you!
He didn't care about the happy life his sister has, nor he cares about his mother gossiping about the neighbors of famous actors on TV, he turned his back and went to his room.
"My dungeon, where i feel safe and hugged by sorrow and sadness."
He thought, as he sat on his computer chair.
This nobody loves to be melodramatic about his routine, delicate as a flower, with an weird tendency of jerking off to child pornography, but on the internet he was like a warrior who fought dozens of wars.
Engaging in arguments over anime or anything related to his belief system, which pretty much revolves around nazis and flat earth society, what a mess.
"Huh.. what is this post?
Some other loser talking shit about Trump, if only i could end this boy's life."
In his own mind, a nobody like him could be someone, and he likes to believe that he is this emontionless bastard in the movies, killing people with sunglasses on and leather jacket, let me tell you something, a white dude without a reason to live is like a bomb set to explode, we all know that one quiet kid on school right?
But then, someone got in his life, nd it gave some hope of changing it, her name was Gabriele, a cam girl, he fell in love with this woman on the screen, he no longer watched child pornograph, only Gabriele.
He even stopped uploading his uninteresting Fortnite gameplay to youtube, his attention was on this little brazillian girl, he then decides to do something with his life.
"I wanna look like this bitch and earn money doing the same."
He couldnt resist the thought of getting some cash by putting stuff up his ass, that was a huge turn on for him, and to look like her was a more than a fetiche, it was another delusion, slowly he is losing himself in a desperate attempt of being relevant, because that is what he values the most, relevance.
Hours have passed and the nobody kept thinking about how to get money online, but as soon as he realizes he actually needs to put thought and work on his plan, he gave up.
"But i will try to do those things, for fun or whatever, it might be good for me."
He wasn't talking about riding some dildo or sucking silicone dicks, he wants to use drugs, all kinda of drugs.
The chaotic mind of the nobody was incoherent, often times a bleeding mess of ideas who will never get him nowhere, he had such skill at being silent and doing nothing, but his mind was an unsettling location, somewhere inside it he knows it is unhealthy to feed his stupid thoughts.
His dad was home once again, his mother was cooking, and the nobody was dressing up with his mother's underwear, he does not identifies as a woman or whatever gender exists, the nobody is merely trying to cease his mind of telling him to rape a little girl, at least that is what he believes, but his actions may not have logical reasons.
- What the fuck are you doing, you sissy little bitch!
His dad saw everything, screaming and shouting, the entire neighborhood could hear it, the nobody just wanted his dad to stop screaming, and he tried to punch him, but his dad is and old marine, it was foolish to try to punch him, the nobody was knocked unconscious.
For the next five hours, his parents would decide what to do with the nobody, his mother wanted him to stay and had high hopes of him changing his life for good, but the father did not believe his son would change.
- This good for nothing is not living here anymore, he is fucking gay and that alone make me sick.
"I woke up pretending to be a bitch slapped by some pimp, i like that."
The nobody thought, and soon he realizes his dad is coming upstairs, with his belt on hands.
- Now listen here kid, you have two options, you get out of my house, or you stay and i'll give a lesson with this belt.
The nobody turned over and slapped his butt, telling his dad to hit hard and leave a good mark.
"Make me your bitch, daddy."
The father was disgusted, he didn't even touch him, he just told his son to get out of his house asap.
And a few minutes later, the nobody was homeless, without a clue of what to do, his mind was playing tricks on himself, making he believe it was a wise decision to go away and leave your family behind.
The nobody believed he was an anarchy punk with an interesting personality, but in reality he was stupid and dumb.
