When Do You Truly Begin to Live?
Life. How unforgiving you may be to some, and so fortunate to others. The question is asked on a daily basis, how could this happen to me? Why me? I always thought I was a very lucky person growing up. From winning sneaker draws, winning a lot of money at the casino, to seeing the rarest cars out on the street on a random Tuesday. To being super fortunate at work, amounting most of my success to luck. I never sat down and thought to myself why some things happen versus others. Or how things have a way of lining up and coming into your life at the most unexpected but right moments. Maybe I’m just a good person and my karma continues to reward me year after year. This just so happened to be the most unexpected year of my life.
2019. It took me 29 years to truly experience what it was to live. It wasn’t The Las Vegas trip, renting a Lamborghini driving it out in the desert, nor was it Disney, or getting promoted at work multiple times. 29 years later, a bond like no other came into my life. I asked myself, why me? You see, I shared a very special bond with this person, whom is on the cover of this book, that didn’t make sense no matter what way we looked at it. It did however have one thing in common, it was easy.
How could you feel like your living your life truly, if it’s something easy? 29 years and you’re telling me that life can be simple, and feel completely perfect? No way. But in its simplicity came the specialness. Growing up I was a romantic. I believed in chivalry and being present for your loved one whoever it my be the time. At a young age I would always tell myself I had to treat my significant other as if they were the only person on earth. I always had to make them feel special and wanted. I was going out of my way making others as happy as I could. This to me was living. I fell into a trap thinking people wanted to be loved like I wanted to be loved. I have studied all the love languages and still couldn’t understand what was happening at the beginning of 2019. Allow me to explain.
New Year’s Day 2019, I texted her. From that moment, all the back and forth and secrets we started creating of who she was with, to why she was spending her New Years away from family, it felt like I was talking to my best friend. I’m typically the first person to say I love them, but this time it was different. I felt connected somehow to this person I barely knew at the time expect for work. This is somehow the start of me feeling what it was truly like to live.
