Do Not Disturb
So I’m sleeping on my bed and I just can’t stop crying. My pillow is wet from all the tears. And the pain inside doesn’t seem to cease. I feel so much pain and reasons being I don’t know what’s behind it. You know how they say dead people don’t feel pain... well I wanna not feel the pain but be alive. I honestly do not want to die despite the fact I’ve tried taking my life more than once.
I feel like I’m going back to that because I’ve started taking sleeping pills again. And that’s how it started the last time.
I began feeling empty, like my life had no purpose. Honestly, sometimes all you need is a little attention. Someone to hold you and tell you it’s gonna be okay. But what if there’s no one? You try talking to them but do they ever listen? You try all you can to get out your cry for help but it’s not working.
Reasons behind me feeling bad I will not disclose today because I usually feel like other people are going through worse and my hurt is unimportant.
Unimportant is what I am
