My Routine
John POV:
I woke up from a harsh slap on my by none other than my dear father " GET UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT" yells my father.I woke up with a startle " I...I..m up dad " ."Make my breakfast and go to college bastard" yells my father .
Tears well up in my eyes it is the same routine everyday .Then I wake up go to freshen up and hide the bruises and go to another hell hole by that I mean college.You must be thinking why I call my college a hell hole because it is worse than my home .
Here I have nobody to talk to because everyone knows I'm gay and nobody likes talking to a nerd,fat,ugly gay boy .There are other popular people who are gay but they have lots of friends and I envy them a lot because I want to have friends too
Once I enter college someone bumps into me and I fell into the ground and I was about to apologise to the person but he kicks me into the stomach and yells"WATCH WHERE YOU ARE GOING YOU FAT ASS" .I have always felt insecure about myself and without knowing I start to cry and everyone started laughing then I managed to get up and go to my locker and as expected there were notes like "go kill yourself","no one needs you" blah blah blah.i grab my schedule and go to my first class and suddenly someone with blue captivating eyes enter and I'm lost in them I know who he is .
He is none other than Edward Styles the most popular guy in this college and no one I mean by no one dares to get on his bad side but I don't know I kind of have a crush on him and I know there is no chance because the guy like him will never end up with a guy like me .I mean jss look at him he is the meaning of perfection like he is a football captain, school president, everyone favourite and me I'm jss...a nobody so there is absolutely nochance and he sits with his gang and enjoy the company.I wish I had atleast one friend but that is not possible at all
I have also heard he is a champion in boxing so no one dares approach him and I was suddenly out of the daydream when the bell rang it was lunch period and I grab things to go to cafeteria and eat what my father and brother left.I started to eat some banana and sandwich when something wet lands on my head and I see one of the Cheer leader girl pours all the juice on my head and everybody started laughing even Edward.I felt so humiliated so I ran to the bathroom to clean myself up and when I reached there I locked the door and started cleaning my clothes and I couldn't take it anymore and I cry my heart out and questions "what have I done wrong to deserve this" and after solid 40 minutes of crying I start to leave as it's time to go home my another hell.
I thought of avoiding my bullies but luck was not on my side and they found me and started kicking and punching me and after they were satisfied I lay there for a few minutes and get up to leave as I can't be late otherwise my dad will kill me like literally and I hope my brother is not at home because he treats me badly and I'm hella scared of him because he tried to rape me many times .I hope he is not home .I reached home and luckily dad was passed out on couch so without making any noise I went upstairs and clean myself and tries to sleep .
I stare at my ceiling and think that maybe there is hope maybe jss maybe... whenever I close my eyes I see that damn blue eyes... Edward the man I am in love with and the man who will be never mine and then I drifted to sleep and prays that maybe tomorrow will be better day filled with hope ...I'm not losing hope not this soon...
