Isolation

This is my life, Am MONICA HARRISON, Am a sixteen years old boring white teen, trust me there is nothing interesting about me. As at last year I was diagnosed for pancreatic cancer, the cancer you are most likely to miss. Approximately 44,000 people are diagnosed each year 38,000 will die part of the problem involves where the pancreatic is located hidden deep in the back of the abdomen. Too often by the time the tumor is located, the cancer has spread beyond the initial site making it more difficult to treat. Like every other cancer it has terrible symptoms like; warning signs, jaundice, abdominal or back pain, unexplained weight loss, digestive problems, drinking more than one alcoholic beverages a day or more than two soda per week chronic alcohol consumption more than one drink a day for women and more than two drinks for men over an extended period of time and then finally come DEATH

l live in E.JOHNSON str in San Antonio which is in Texas,USA. My mom work in a Cafe down town, my dad was one of those father that went to get milk and never came back, that mean he ran away besides who want a poor family with a sick child that need lots of money constantly for medical attention and my brother NATHAN was 18 and in high school also was very popular and loved by everyone and was really ashamed of my looks and everything about me. Tho we were good inside the house but outside we were the total opposite. Let say my family was not the best but I figured out a way to be happy with anything in life writing on my diary who was always there for me.

you must be wondering how I survived a year with my cancer and how we could afford it, the thing was that we could afford it and I all most die. Then I met REUBEN SEBASTIAN. I was on my dying bed crying in pain and needed the operation badly for my well being but the doctor wouldn't work with out completely payment. I cried I thought that would be it in the next few years I won't be remembered I still remember seeing a weird boy in wheelchair with weird saying all would be okay the I woke up in another rooms and all seem to be okay my mom and brother was very happy and then I found out some nice family have paid for my treatment then he came in with his family and my mom seems to be thanking them. Then REUBEN came to me introducing himself, I was so happy girl the second chance to be alive that was given to me.

The SEBASTIAN family were wealthy and only had one child reuben who has ALZHEIMER'S disease stage 7 which means half of his brain cells are dead, severe ALZHEIMER'S disease, and needs assistance for everything he does which is why he lives in the hospital and the strange things is that it only affects old people mostly and his case is strange also for the doctors. Reuben has no friends expect from me and that why I always go there to check on him and I hold his family my life.

Enough of that part of my life, every other kid met that are like me stop high school because of the disease and get home school l went to school like every normal child and my mom act like I just got fever or some kind of cold. Most time I feel am carrying the world pain my pain wasn't from the cancer or the fact am likely to die but from everyone around me and in school every one see me as the girl that needs donations.MR ELLIOT even went far last year making every one donate for me the worst part was my mom accepted it and Sara stops at nothing to tell me a part of me is her money.

One day a teacher asked me what my death wish was, my heart was shattered and everyone was interested to know.i walked out from my class in tears standing at the front of the door, when I heard BETTY saying not everyone is ready to face death. Then KYLE said what the point of having cancer with out a death wish and they all giggled saying that the best part of teenagers with cancer. I realize I need to be more define I needed a DEATH WISH and a plan for my present life now am alive and not ready to lose my little time left to cancer.