Chapter 1
My name is Irie , well it doesn’t matter who I am anyway.
I live by the discipline and the rules , it is not that I like them but most likely it is a habit beaten to the bones.
Routine :
wake up – 8:00
Work – 13-00
Meal – 14:00
Work – 18:00
Meal – 19:00
Shower – 20:00
Sleep – 22:00 that is all …
It is good like that . Yeah , it is good. I don’t like leisure nor free time. Because of that time , my mind can’t help but wonder to the forbidden moments. To the past , to the never ending what if questions and to possible solutions . I hate it …
I don’t feel regret or remorse one bit . So it is waste of time to think and remember .
But the only times I can’t control my mind are in dreams . However it has been so long , so memories became hazy and my mind tricks me every time with different troupes and as if torturing making my relieve the best and the worst moments of my life .
I guess that’s is just the way our brains function. It is logical and works hard to protect us from further trauma . At least I can give her a credit for that.
^Shouting^ : Lights are off!
Enough … Time to sleep … Good night …
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18 march 1998 (12 years old)
Mother : Congrats , my darling!
Brother : Yeah , look how big you have become
Irie : haha , thank you!
Father : Irie , wish you to make lots of friends in middle school
Irie : yeah , haha. I will make tons of friends and become popular with girls.
Brother: what are you talking about? I have told you many times – quality but not the quantity.
Mother : Enough , let’s eat. Here is your favorite Irie . Cheesecake with strawberries.
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April , 1998.
Mother: Good luck on the first day of your schools. Irie , it is your brother’s last year. Then he will head to university. Take your time and learn from him all you need , ok?
Irie: Ah- huh . But I can manage on my own too. I am going , bye!
First day at school , ugh. I am so nervous. I hope I can make good impression …
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Irie: I am home!
Mother: Oh , how was it? You look so happy . I guess I can say it was success?
Irie : haha , yeah. I am going to change.
It was good day. At first I was so nervous , but the boy in front of me turned back and talked to me. I was so happy.
His name is Kaeru , he is tall but looks a bit like a girl with big eyes and dark hair . But he is a good boy with a good heart.
Then , Kaeru introduced me to his friend Natsu . Hmm… Natsu has light brown hair , which is a bit long . He isn’t a girly or anything . Actually he is a bit cool , hehe. If I may say so…
Both of them are taller than me , I hope I will grow too.
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