My Girl

I can never seem to remember the day that we met,

Not like most, who save the date like precious jewels,

Locked away, kept safe,

Always there to look upon and wonder,

‘How did such a magnificent thing end up here with me?’

I can never seem to remember the day we met,

Because it feels like you have always been here with me.

Never a memory recalled that I’m not standing by your side,

We’ve always been together, best friends,

Drawn together by something bigger than either of us

Together we’ve traveled so far, for so many years,

Somehow avoiding all the bumps, never stumbling,

Always in sync with one another.

You are my light, my guide, my anchor to this strange cruel world,

Keeping me from traveling astray,

Even though this sea we sail

Our destination unknown,

Seems to change every day.

Yet somehow, standing atop this ship

Made of our unshakable trust and intertwined fingers,

I managed to plunge, headfirst, dizzy with joy,

On a path that I never intended,

Into an ocean of love for you.

From strangers all that time ago,

To friends who knew not of what was to become,

To best friends and soul sisters,

I’ve never regretted a single thing.

And I’m not sorry.

I’m not sorry for any of the steps we have taken together,

Any of the oceans we have traveled so far across.

No, I’m not even sorry for this fall that I took alone.

Before now, before I fell so hard for you,

I thought I had known love.

And when it shattered me,

I believed I could never bear it again,

That I could never willingly face that pain of caring.

But no, that was not it,

I was in love with the idea of being in love.

This headfirst plunge to you showed me,

That was not love, but this,

This is.

It’s the ‘I’m going insane over the sight of this girl’ type of love,

Crazy, wholehearted, and boundless,

Gentle, soft, and unyielding.

Unknowingly, you brought this into my life,

Along with everything good in the world,

And I will forever be thankful.

We are so different, you and I,

And yet, we are so much the same.

Our similarities and differences have merged across time.

We seem to communicate by doing nothing at all.

We talk.

Of all the things I value about this crazy thing that is us,

And there are so many I often lose count,

I value most the way that we talk.

Anytime, anything, anywhere,

We can talk.

Your words, the melodies so often stuck in my head,

Can bring my raging storm down to a gentle sea,

Can soothe even the deepest of aches,

And can reassure that everything is going to be okay.

I love the way that we can have fun doing the weirdest things,

The crazy things we’re always told not to do.

Those memories, the ones where we broke all the rules,

Are some of my favorites that we share.

I love the way that we can have fun doing nothing at all,

Just sitting around,

The quiet a steady comforting silence.

I love that we can have fun doing even the most regular things,

We shop and walk,

We eat and talk,

We play games till we drop,

And we have the best karaoke sessions.

I love the quiet spark hidden inside of you,

Because who could have known,

That this soft ocean breeze of a girl,

So quiet to everyone around her,

Could be so filled with a fire so rarely seen.

But a fire seen by me.

When the world gives you every reason to scream,

You are calm.

When life is less than lovable,

You still find a way to make it okay.

You are even more beautiful when that spark ignites,

Becoming a blaze in your soul reflected in your eyes,

So strong.

You glow, radiant and filled with light.

And yes, I love your beauty,

As shallow as that may seem.

I love your eyes, like stars,

As they look at me.

Your hair, cast golden in the morning sun,

Always smelling of flowers and home, warm and sweet.

The feel of your hand in mine,

So soft and yet so strong.

And I love your smile, your real smile,

That is so often hidden from the world,

As you laugh at my joke nobody else would find funny.

I love the way you understand me too well,

My thoughts, my feelings, my moods.

You know them all, and the secrets we share.

Our lives have become so meshed together,

It seems like there is never a thought that you aren’t in.

I love the way that you trust in me,

With your secrets, with your feelings, with yourself

That trust has always meant so much.

There are so many more reasons why I love you,

Like your quiet confidence,

Your kindness towards all

Your understanding and acceptance,

And too many more to count.

I am not blinded by my love though,

And I know you are not perfect, no one is perfect.

You are quick to forgiveness when you shouldn’t forgive

You are tolerant when you should be anything but,

I know your perfections and imperfections,

Everything in between.

But as cliché as it sounds,

I love you even more because of them.

My days are so much better when you’re around,

And I cannot fathom a life without you in it.

A life without you.

A life without this love.