Lies.

“Some dates should be removed from the calendar that gives us great grief.”

– Pankaj Rajawat

The Dates. How often do we remember the dates? Not so many times, Right? I guess, there are some reasons to remember some of the specific dates. These dates are not like the ordinary dates chilling within a calendar hanging on some wall, instead, these dates carry our feelings, emotions, and foremost us. However, we are all humans and the thing we carry on this head is a very complex thing that controls our most of the activities, oh yes! I am talking about THE brain, that not only performs multi-tasking but also carries loads of shit inside it; including our beautiful memories, worst nightmares, acceptances, rejections, good days, bad days, and almost everything and this is the basic reason why I hate it so much.

I know all days aren’t the same and not every day we’ll be treated similarly. But that’s not the only problem. There’s no problem with the brain; it is doing its duty. The main problem is with the heart and its problem is to interfere in the decision making of the brain. It’s a cycle. Once you were alone, you found someone, spent some time together, got attached, fell in love, and one day, they ditched you, hurt your feelings, broke your trust from love, you got isolated and ended up being alone. But one day, the cycle repeats until unless you would able to find your soulmate.

I hate this heart because knowing the consequences of falling for someone, we always fall and this falling hurts and what else can we do? Falling and Remembering is a sequence, how often did you forget your birthdate? And Do you remember when you’d your Accident? See. It makes sense right here. Our brain is designed to remember most of the worst thing happened to you rather than remembering the good days and smiling. However, there is a fine line between the happiness and the sadness; and over these fine lines, there is this lie we usually tell ourselves that everything is okay which takes me to the cursed day of my life.

May 21st, 2016

How can I not forget this specific date? After all, so many memories have been clustered in this head for the past few months and this day has its own story of not forgetting something. You know, it’s hard and it’s painful to live in a Lie, where you believe that one day everything’s gonna be fine and the blunder happening in your life will go with a brightening sun rising from the east where dark clouds will no longer crossing your paths casting their shadows within darkness and sadness; where the rains no longer meant to hide your tears; where showers will be just for bathing; where no nightmare would ruin your sleep and everything will become more interesting than usual. But it’s a Lie. Isn’t it?

Well, back to the date, May 21st, I had my divorce. After 3 years of marriage, we realized that I was the only one who wanted this relationship to be a success. You must have many questions though, why it wasn’t a success? Why we had a divorce? What was the reason? What happened afterward? And So on. If not, there should be because If you don’t think now, you won’t realize how deep we will be going to be part of this journey. From the day it all started to the day, where I’m admitted to the ICU ward, fighting within a coma for my life.

Hey! My name is Stacey Woods and Welcome to my unheard story.