But I Love Her

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Summary

!!Warning!! contains scenes of self-harm, anorexia and suicidal thoughts. If anyone gets triggered from these, don't read it. I also hope you don't have to go through this. Bailey is really confused. And she is not okay with it either. Jade, her best friend in the whole world, turns pretty over the summer. Jade has always been pretty to Bailey but she has very clearly had a 'glow up' when she walks down the halls in a short skirt and with her blonde hair down. The boys would whistle and popular girls would talk to her. But that's not all Jade's doing. Bailey can't focus when Jade is around, she gets flustered and scrambles her words, and she doesn't want to admit that she caught feelings. Bailey forces herself into a hole of denial and Depression, she starts starving herself and feeling like no one gets her. As Bailey becomes quiet she distances herself from Jade so jade accepts the popular group's invitation and sits with them at lunch. She never wanted to, she was just fine with being with Bailey. As the year goes on Jade notices Bailey comes to school a lot less, and the once straight-A student is now going to have to repeat. Jade begins to try to help Bailey, but she doesn't want it. what will happen to Bailey? To their relationship? A/N I am terrible at writing blurbs so please forgive me.

Status
Ongoing
Chapters
1
Rating
5.0 2 reviews
Age Rating
16+

Chapter 1 - I Suck so Bad

Bailey’s POV

I have not slept in three days. I just can’t, not physically, mentally. my brain is going 200 mp/h. Don’t get me wrong I want to sleep. I am so freaking tired but I can’t. Why is my brain going to explode from thoughts? Well, it’s the same reason my stomach feels like it’s going to have a nervous baby.

Going through the events of three days ago. Well more like ‘event’. And not to forget, the events that came after. I feel sicker just thinking about it. Ugh.

When I sit up I can see myself in the floor-length mirror on the wardrobe. I look dead. I'm finally skinny from not eating for so long (longer than I haven't slept) but now Jade's t-shirt looks like a baggy pillowcase hanging on my shoulders. Too skinny. My cheek and collarbones are sticking out and make me look like one of those sick kids on TV. My eyes are sunken in and have dark bags hanging under them.

I look so small.

Small.

'This is my small friend' that's what Jade called me.

Before.

I suck so bad.


Let me start from the beginning.