Why?

I can't do this. No this isn't happening. What should I do now? Whhhyyyy???

These questions kept on swirling and twirling in my mind. I could not believe that it had finally come down to this? I didnt deserve to go through all of this.

Why did nobody tell me that this is what it would lead to? Didn't i deserve to make my own choice for my own life? I had my rights! Right? Well at least i thought so...

sighs

''Ameeka, you need to make a decision fast. We don't have all day you know.''

My best friend's irritated voice interrupts my thoughts. I had almost forgotten she was still there. I looked up to see her looking at me with worry written all over her face. I hate seeing her like this. But what can she do? Her buddy is going to end her social life in front of the whole school and it's too late to turn back now. Chances are very slim that she'll make it out alive so what else can she do.

''Okay Marylynne. Just give me a second. I need to th...''

''I need to think. I need to think. Girl come on. You been saying that for an hour now. You know either way that you're going to have to do. I tried to tell you to stay out of it from the word go but you just wouldn't listen.''

Its true. If anything, Marylynne was never in support of my decision. She told me over and over again that it was a bad decision but i never paid attention. Even in my dreams she said the same thing. Lol, thats weird. Point remains she did tell me so and now here i am. Stuck in a very comfortable place having to choose between a rock and a hard place.

But how did it even come down to this?