Leave him alone.

My name is riah I’m 17 years only live in my own tiny house and I have a boyfriend which is damarion. He put me through so much and I still won't leave him alone. He constantly cheats on me and I keep forgiving him and go back because he tells me he gone do better and treat me right. I tried to leave him once and he beat on me and made me have sex with him. I tell people I’m fine but really I’m not I’m depressed and in a bad relationship. So today, 04/16/2019 I left my first real love. He tried to talk me out of it and give me something else I almost said yeah but I told myself you deserve better. 3 weeks go by and he keeps texting me and I just left him on delivered and blocked him. I met this boy name Omar, let me give you a discription he tall, brownskin, braces and waves where I met him at was finish line doing his job and I asked can he help me find some shoes. Of course he did because it’s his jod he asked what I’m going for showed him the outfit he said “that would be fire on you”. I looked and smiled he said “lemme have yo line shorty”. I gave it to him he hit me up and asked wyo (what you on) i told him I was going out and he said “ where so I can pull up”. I told him and he actually came. I got real drunk but knew what I was doing and asked him can I go home with him. He took me to his house and I got in the shower and put on one of his t shirts and layed by him. As much as I wanted to it ain’t happed. The next day I got up put on my clothes he asked where I was going I said home he said I don’t want you to go and got up started kissing me and started to touch me. His hand went in my pants and he started to feel on my ass and put his hand around my neck I like that aggressive thing so I got soaked and he layed me on the bed no more details! Me and Omar been talking every day for 2 weeks but I ghosted him. Just to go to my ex house and cuddle and Omar found out and stoped talking to me. I’m back with my ex we are in a healthy relationship. A lot of people telling me I look like a clown but when I’m with him I fell nobody can hurt me. I don’t know what it is but I think I’m still in love. Long story short where back together we doing good and I don’t think he’s going to cheat no time soon. He really try to make me happy but it feels weird but I love him for trying!