My Story: 1st year
They said it's okay to be, not to be fine.
They said, nobody is perfect. They said it's alright to make mistakes.
They said "Let's enjoy life, you only live once"
I always heard those words, they always have the positive thoughts, and that's why I always admired those peoples.
They have the rights to lived.
At the age of 17 living in this world. I realized how terrible the world is, the people around you, the perspective you have in your own self. I always have the thoughts of dying.
Because I want to escape and that's the only solution I can think of. I always hated my life, when im still middle school. I always said "please kill me already" because all I can do escape.
I work hard for people around me to think that they'll finally accept me. So I tried my best. After months have passed they accepted me and I thought im finally belong on their world. But then, I was wrong, they just used me, for good and bad.
I left. Im back again from where I belong. Being alone.
That was the summary of me being a middle school student.
Time sure flies really fast. Im finally graduated and moved to another horrible year.
Im a highschool student now.
I said to myself that I need to change to enjoy my life. I have 3 years left. I need people to accept me this year. I said.
I was happy that I turned highschool student even though I was still at my 1st year.
I think it turn out well, I can talk at them, I can tell some stories and we laugh all together. We even hang out at weekends, and it was fun for me.
One day, I'm about to open the door lead to my room I heard some mumbling. It was about me.
"Did you know that.." I heard my classmates talking about me, they laughing at me. So I didn't open the door and just walk away.
I don't know what to do, so I just pass by at neighborhood. Waiting for evening, so I can go home. I was just there sitting. I have nothing to do after all, just staring at sky changing colors.
19:15 I finally went home.
My alarm starts beeping at 5:00. I got up and start moving. Before 7, I left at my house and starts to walk.
After minutes passed. I was at my school gate.
I heard some rumors again, my classmates starts avoiding me and no one, wants to hang out with me. I don't know why, so I just ignore it.
Several months have passed, only 3 months left and my 1st year will end. I have no friends, im all alone through this year. I accept it. Accepted that I can't be like them.
The day of recognition and the end of my 1st year. I was happy. I'm so happy that I will not see them again. 3 months will pass and my 2nd year highschool will start.
I tried to become a postive and I moved to another school and said I will do better this year.
Month of April, my school will start again.
