𝙲𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎 𝚊 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚛 || 𝕓𝕥𝕤 𝕗𝕗

What does it feel like to be a sinner? Well for someone who never trusted what their mother told them, it scares me. I never knew how scary it really could be to be a sinner. But also, it made me who I am, it made me learn who I wanted to be. No one would ever believe if they met someone god like. That's only heard in the movies, that's if you truly believe. But in real life, you don't have to believe, all you have to do is sin. Good people go to heaven, bad people go to hell but what happens when your neither or both? I'll tell you, you get tempted. You get tested by the people who want you most. Either you get sent a angel or get sent demons. They will tempt you to be good or bad, because they want you...they crave you. Imagine, having not only one demon tempting you, but seven. You already know what I'm getting at right? Imagine the seven deadly sins coming to you, tempting you because they crave your soul, they crave having you in hell with them so you can finally realize how it feels to suffer. But what if I told you...not everyone wants to be a sinner. I never wanted to be a sinner but here I am, being exactly what I never wanted to be. Your most likely thinking, "Well why did you give into temptation. It's not that hard to stay away" Yeah, well it would be that easy if you weren't me. If you were me you would know exactly what it feels like to have seven men trick you into going into hell with them. You would understand that temptation isn't just in your head but it is also in your heart. Your heart can deceive you and trick you as much as people can. Your heart can be dangerous, your heart can trick you and bring you down the wrong path. I could've used my head, I could've listened to logic and I did...at first. I wanted to be a better person but it doesn't always work out that way,m. Your life is already planned for you and there is nothing you can do about that. You can try all you want, but God and the Devil have already talked it out and they will pick and choice who they really want, because they know who truly belongs. You can be good and run off on the wrong path and the other way around. All you can do is trust yourself to lead you the right way and the right way for me was those boys. I craved them as much as they craved me, even when it scared me, I kept following them because it felt right...it felt like destiny. I will never go back on my choice, because at the end...I was born a sinner.