Prologue
"Del. Will you just tell me what is the problem?" Isaac begged me
I contemplated telling him that I knew. I knew that Rose and Isaac had developed feelings for one another. And even though they tried not to hurt me and never acted upon it it was visible even to the blind.
"I'm just not feeling up to the relationship anymore" I said half truth.
When the person you have feelings for falls in love with your best friend unknowingly and so does your best friend you do the only sensible thing, you take yourself out of the picture. I mean I get it,it happens. No, I wasn't going to go on the path of revenge and destroy everything and everyone that came into my way. I was mature than that, well in this aspect at least. And to be honestly him and Rose would look cute.
This by no means was a rash decision. I have put in a lot of thought over it and by a lot I mean overthinking about every possible scenario and outcome of it right,left,up and down even the revenge one. But this was the only one which seemed well sensible
"Del come on did I do something?Is that why you are upset?" he pleads
I cup his cheek and smile softly "You couldn't have done anything to upset me Isaac. I just don't think we are the one for each other. And I think you already know that" I say sighing slightly
Realization dawns on Isaac, he knows that I know "Delilah,I am so so-" he starts
"Hey hush! I am not mad. I get it okay? Now go be with the one you truly want" I say turning away so he doesn't see my eyes completely emotionless.
"Are you sure?" he asks gently
"Never been more sure" I say desperately trying to keep my voice normal
I hear his footsteps fading away as the deafening silence fills up the room. I gently shut the door of my room and sighed plopping down on my bed. Yet another failed relationship. My luck in relationships was as good as Harry Potter in a peaceful life.
My phone rings that very moment. I contemplate on not picking up but after seeing the called ID I know he will come over if I didn't "Hey" I say trying to make my voice sound as normal as possible
"You are upset" he stated
"What?No" I say
"Uh huh. Unlock your window" he says
"What you are here? Aren't you supposed to be off to work?" I ask
"Tsk Tsk Tsk work can fuck itself for a night. Especially if my best friend needs me" he says
I roll my eyes and sigh as I unlock the window. Ryan climbs in moments after that.
"You know you can come in like a normal person through the front door and not be tarzan" I say
"I know but I always like Linda going oh my god when did you come" he said imitating my mom in a fake british accent making me laugh
"So what happened ?" he asks the playfulness in his voice dissipating
"I broke up with Isaac" I say barely audible. I hear him momentarily curse under his breath. Before I am engulfed into his familiar scent. I feel the tears come back again and soak his hoodie.
Ryan was the only one I showed my emotions to. I felt exposed.
He murmurs soothing words to me as he rubs his hand up and down my back in a comforting manner. I smiled slightly at that.
Me and Ryan had been friends for so long that I don't remember life before him. Probably because there barely was any life before him. You see mom is British and dad is American. So just as I was born we moved to america from London to be near Gran and that is when 1 year old me met 1 year old Ryan.
It was Friendship at first fight
Ryan was the quite kid at well everywhere, even in the neighborhood. Moms would praise him for being unproblematic whereas I was the raging crazy bitch and for the first two years our mum's just let us play together in hopes that maybe I would calm down a bit.To no avail I tell you. By the time we entered kindergarten I had made up my mind about being his friend even though he despised me and even though I barely even knew the word. And as we all know children can be cruel so one of the older children tried to pick on him and me,with my petite little body fought him. Yeah it may not have ended well had our teacher not intervened but in that moment we became what we later learnt to be best friend.
From the on it has been a glorious adventure. Being complete opposites actually helped. Ryan was what you called the mom friend. Not kidding I have caught a very discerning amount of time sitting with my mum having tea while spilling the tea. Mum adores him,probably more than me. And me on the other hand, I admit I can be bit of a handful sometimes. Others would say I am impulsive and emotionally driven and they wouldn't be lying. There is not one practical fiber in me unless you really pissed me off then I can be so cold that you have to doubt if I have any emotions
So back to present time "So do you wanna watch the notebook 13 times and eat tonnes of ice cream?" Ryan asked
"What?No. Who has got that sort of time?" I said tying my hair up in a bun.
"So what are we gonna do?" he asked
"Watching crappy high school drama and judging sound good?" I asked
"Sounds perfect" he said as we went down to the living room. I turned on the TV while Ryan bought some soda and doritos for us.
And we snuggled inside a blanket I felt the exhaustion of the day catch up to me and moments later I started feeling drowsy and struggled to keep my eyes open.
Ryan put and arm around and said "Its okay go to sleep" and just like that I let sleep take over.
