Love Suicide Note
Every moment of each day I try to depart
The hope that one day you’ll see the pain
You have heavily stamped upon my heart
And how you’ve crushed it into a tiny grain
I will always be branded from valid betrayals
That you have embedded within my soul
And all your not so innocent portrayals
Have pushed me into a dark and lonely hole
You’ve killed our genuine emotions
I can no longer deny the questionable fact
That I have to finally get rid of my notions
But for the sake of me, you I must subtract
Even if you could, I know you’ll never change
And if for the tiniest second you ever did
The historical alteration would be strange
Because somehow you’d still be sordid
I can’t lie and say I no longer love you
But you’ve deadened all my belief
In that happily ever after story I grew up to
How can a fairy tale turn into grief
The man I met just a few years ago
Who was once a man so wonderful intact
Is now the man with an appalling ego
With a cold heart that can’t be cracked
We had a great relationship and how
With these chain linked reaction of events
Could you lead us to where we are now
Why from the start would you misrepresent
You would never dare swim across the sea
Climb a mountain or rope the moon
To make me the slightest bit happy
Everything is about you and only you
I don’t wish to reinvent the past of you and me
I am going to try to take the wretched pain away
Replace it with a mirrored reflection of just me
And revive all my hopes, my dreams and hit replay
Along with poetry, I’ve left a lot behind
This is a little something I sat and wrote
Now that I’m no longer confined
So here’s to you, our love suicide note
Goodbye forever!
Alicia P Smith
Originally written 4/11/2011
