Mixed emotions
Sometimes I wonder what love truly feels like, it's exotic, is it passion, perhaps true love. I truly have not felt that before, Atleast I think so. Is it like in the movies to which you can't breathe without there presence or is it just a feeling deep inside that cannot be explained. As I lay on my bed staring out my window lost in my thoughts I could hear my brother making a loud entrance into my room.
Do you mind knocking next time, Before you barging in? I could've been naked for goodness sake" I said agitated.
"Nope can do Sissy poo but next time you should lock your door" he replied with a smirk. I looked at my door and what I saw made me mad at my younger brother. I gave him an angry stare.
"What did you do with my doorknob?" I Became Furiated. He gulped and his face turned as white as the snow. I leaped from my bed after him.
"Troy what did you do?" he was about to say something back when my dad entered the hall with his arms crossed and a blank expression. I knew I was in trouble. The last time this happened, I got grounded for forgetting to do my homework.
“SERENA ALEXIS HEX" He yelled. I thought about ways to sneak out of his sight but I know my brother would snitch about it. I faked a Little Princess smile at him and said
"hey daddy, So how was the football game? Did the cowboys win?" In an attempt to change the subject as every kid has tried too.
“Serena don't try to change the subject as you try every time you know you are in trouble." I faintly roll my eyes and ask
"What did I do this time?" because its always something.
“For the third time this week, you started a fight at school. They're talking about expelling you." i shudder and say
"Dad you don't understa..." he cuts me off and says
" I don't need to understand because your principal told me everything" "this is getting out of hand in a hurry. What do you think this will do to your future"?
"But dad please just hear me out"
"NO SERENA! I'm done hearing what you have to say. YOUR GROUNDED and I'm taking your doorknob, So you can't lock your door anymore. I'm still thinking of another punishment for you so don't think you are getting off easy."
"BUT DAD P-" I was trying to explain but once again he shouts over me.
"GO TO YOUR ROOM" he yelled. his voice echoed threw the walls. I ran upstairs to my room and cried while I stare out the window. It started raining again like it has been for weeks now. Quietly whispering to myself "Noone understands me. They won't listen. They don't get me. My own father doesn't even listen to me. it feels like I'm alone suffering, screaming, begging for someone to listen. My mother has stopped visiting me and troy on the weekends anymore. She has stopped speaking to my dad, oh my poor dad. I started sobbing, as if my mind isn't messed up enough I feel as though there is more than one person in my head. It seemed to get worse when I was diagnosed with ADHD." My brother comes back in and asks
"Hey Sisi poo, you ok?" he wraps me in a hug. I respond in a raspy voice
"I'm fine Boo Boo, I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. I want you to worry about you and to keep yourself ok.
" I had a feeling my Dad was going to send me away in the morning. I whispered I love you." To my baby brother I hope wherever he sends me is warm and my brother can join me.
