Part one Las Vegas Night Shift

012.M41

Well today was easier i am slowly learning how to control the new me and that is all thanks to Lord Mephiston. Well as I ended my diary yesterday I lost control of my power and hurt a few people, not only that I am hearing so many different things it is confusing me I have my own problem to deal with so I decided to go for a walk and I came across this abandoned building that was damaged so I sat there with my legs crossed and thought about what I had done it was getting to me that much I was actually pulling my own hair, it was only after an hour or so that Lord Mephiston found me and tried to help me keep in control and he also told me that he had done the same thing though I think that was his way of trying to make me feel better and it worked as well. While we where walking back to our chambers we were talking about some of our old battles and yes some of them were dangerous there was one battle that Mephiston did not tell the difference between friend and foe luckily I did not get in the way if I had then well you would not be getting daily updates from me, any way as I was saying when we got back to our chambers we sat down and talked some more about our past battles and about what we were going to do when we got to Thermia Five weather we were going to stay together and fight this one or do things the old way and stay apart we opted for the second one we decided to fight this one apart probably not the best being as I’m not in control of the new me yet but I suppose this may give me a chance to explore how strong I really am.

Yes I know I need to learn how to control who I am but how am I supposed to do that when there is a constant threat of bullying yes even on Baal you have bullies and no one gets it more than I do for who and what I am yes being the only female on the team maybe I deserve it but wait no I don’t no one deserves to be bullied no matter what they are. Difference between humans and Space Marines we fight to keep you all safe you humans are not worth it in my eyes but I do it any way I wander how you would last being in my shoes and facing death on a daily basis for people that never will under stand you because you are different and don’t follow the crowd, well tough this is free will we can do what we want and be who we want to be.

Well back on to me now the rant is over, yes I found a place to sit and be alone for a while well probably not being as Mephiston could find me where ever I go, but that was the beauty of a Nexus link not being able to hide from him its what made it better I can hide from everyone else but not him.