Invisible

When people look at me they see a boy that can't do anything.

They see a scrawny male that looks weak.

What they see on the outside they see on the inside too.

They just judge my appearance but not my personality.

They see things that they think are true when they are probably possibilities that are lies.

I was always the kind of guy that was regular.

Not too smart, not too dumb. Not too athletic, not too bad.

I was always in what you call the "average zone".

Average grades.

Average tallness.

Average muscles.

Everything about me was average but there was one different thing, something that made me nonaverage

That something was: me being gay.

Some people saw it look like a good thing, some as a bad thing.

I'm not sure what to believe but I know that I'm OK just the way I am.

************

I have a secret.

The worst kind.

The kind that if anyone found out, I would be doomed.

That secret is: I like someone.

That someone is Camden.

Camden is my friend

but only in my dreams.

I dream, dream, dream.

********

I feel happy, happy that everyone doesn't notice me.

At the same time, I feel sad, sad that no one notices me.

I want to be noticed

but I don't.

By people like Camden, I want to be seen.

I want to be that person wrapped up in his arms.

I know that I won't be seen no matter what.

I'm just average.

********

Camden walked past me

He didn't notice me

but I noticed him.

I drooled as I watched.

He didn't see.

Instead, he kissed his girlfriend right in front of me.

I was angry,

he was trying to make me jealous.

He was trying to see If I liked him

because he liked me too.

He wanted me to feel angry.

I didn't get angry.

I would get him jealous too.

*******

I didn't work,

he didn't even look my way.

I tried moaning loudly to get his attention

but he didn't even look.

I didn't even get a glance.

My plan was a failure.

*******

I tried talking to him today,

he ignored me.

He kept walking and looking around him.

He looked scared.

I would protect him from the dangers,

I told him.

He looked even more scared.

I'm not sure why, I wasn't scary looking.

I was average.

********

He was crying

He was rocking his body forward and backward.

I wanted to help so I placed my hand on his shoulder.

My hand went right through and he screamed bloody murder.

I was sad, sad that he wouldn't love me.

******

He was at the edge of the bridge.

Police swarmed around us.

"GET DOWN PLEASE!!!" they yelled

"Jump, then we will be together!"

I whispered.

Camden jumped.

Finally, we were together.

*******

Camden Trot committed suicide on the wayside bridge. It was believed that Camden started seeing abnormal things and went crazy. Whatever the reason Camden's family and friends said the was acting strange ever since he went on a walk. They said he started acting hysterical. It is believed that he was threatened by a stranger.

Throughout the months he was "losing his grip" Sandy, Camden's girlfriend said.

"We were shocked that Camden committed suicide. Camden always believed that suicide was selfish and wrong yet he did it anyway. Whatever or Whoever threatened him must have been terrifying. My only regret is not being there for him." Charlie, Camden's dad stated.

It is a sad thing that happened, Camden if the afterlife does exist and you are watching this, remember that you will always be missed! If-

The television was turned off.

"Everything has gone according to plan boss."

The man with the sinister smile nodded, "Bring in Camden Trot!

We have business to attend."

The END

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