Expectation (unfinished)
He is always with you.
He knows you feel him there.
You feel his heavy presence
He lingers in the air
He tricks, he teases, gives you false hope
Cold fingers taunting your eyes
The lion that stalks the antelope
A serpent in disguise.
Intriguing shadow, he draws you in
In desperation, you fall
The evil brewing within his skin
His cold breath makes yours crawl
One blink of an eye and your left in his wake
The urge to follow is strong
A nervous feeling you can’t seem to shake
He sings out to you; a siren song
In the fleeting moment you shared with him
His beauty struck you firm
A wonder to your eyes, he fascinates your soul
You’ve fallen in his turn
He always seems so close, but never close enough
You want to feel his aura, his face you long to touch
He was sweet as honey full of sickening pride
He leads you to be like him, make you his own design
But why does he terrify you?
Twists your stomach with fear
You’re a puppet on a string
And he is the puppeteer
You realise you aren’t in control
You forgot if you even were
You had a voice and you didn’t use it
A kitten neglecting its purr
Too blinded by his deep physique
You chase in desperation
You want to meet him, you want approval
A path with no final destination
You keep on pushing and trying and failing
Enough is no longer enough
Anytime you light your small candle of pride
That flame he is quick to snuff
Unrealistic goals are never met
They cut you so deep to your core
Why can you never do enough?
He wants more. He wants more. He wants more.
“You’ve made it this far, don’t ever look back
Don’t think you’re improving yet.
Think of what your family will think
When your goals are never met.”
