Causes&Effects
Chapter 1
The Life
Causes&Effects
( The Life )
I wasn’t going to write at all.
But Life has His way of doing things......
The Life:
I was a labout 4 when I could Understand the way things was going to be.
Sitting in a classroom full of nothing but white kids, listening as they make fun of the black boy.
Church was a everyday thing then, those were the days...
Even though I wish I could somehow forget them they seem to be what was best to experience.
Most people complain of their current situations, Never knowing that if they did not face difficulties, they wouldn’t be who they are.
Growing up in what people call The Church, was not as pleasant as one would suppose.
The school was inside the church and of course the kids of the church went there.
The rules of the church and it beliefs is what made it difficult to a young one.
These are some of those rules:
1-No TV:
*So when we got caught the consequences was most times 3 months punishment(seriously restricted to your room) church, school, and home.
I remember going to see The Body Gaurd
And getting 3 months for doing so.
As youngsters we started not caring about the consequences, we would go have fun then come back ready to face whatever.
1-Anybody that don’t go to the church is a heathen and tou are not to associate with them:
So when we got caught the consequences was
Most times 1 month punishment (not really restricted but treated like crap until you prove yourself to them and pray through. Then you gain your “place” back.
I really do think that people think that everybody’s reality is the same but I have learned over time that this is not the case. Who can teach us about life. Who can give us the reason we need to find the courage to adapt to situations like a flower alone in the desert. Glory seekers are not few. They come in all forms or fashions. I never Knew that learning from this experience would have me ready for these days.
Getting called out in church and directly preached to because of what you’ve done(like went to the movies) is something of the norm to people of this belief system.
3-Freedom is only in the Church: meaning don’t look for nothing outside “The Church” The Church is who helps you and who you are to pay back. Any dealing need to go through the “Pastor”, or “The King of the Castle”. The Pastor usually expresses these things over the pulpit before getting deeper into a message about giving. It was nothing for a Mother to go and buy ‘The Pastor’ food with her food-stamps......
I understand relaxing, But time passing, And I know I’m not crazy,
*Understanding*
Sometimes what’s for you, is not for nobody else. To come to this understanding, one must focus with no regard of arrogance, but keeping humility in the heart accepting it all. Glorifying nothing of self. Never felt the need to do such a thing. When words come to me I seem to listen more with my other ears. The character of a man is not based on his ability to talk but to listen. Reality is not as it seems all the time. All the time something is happening.
Sirens flaring through the night, the cries on the phone calling for help. Why stuff suddenly happens I don’t know.
This pandemic has plagued the world but not my soul.
