10 Minutes

I have ten minutes left of oxygen. There’s no point in trying to speak to waste more, so I’m going to think my final thoughts instead. I’m sorry to everyone I’ve ever wronged. I didn’t mean to hurt you; I just don’t know what I was thinking.

I’m sorry I’ll never marry you, Dayus, because I really like you and I don’t want to live without you, but you’ll have to live without me. I don’t even think you notice the way I speak to you sometimes. Oh well. Forgive and forget.

I’m sorry, mom and dad, I’ll never see you again. I’m drifting in space, a dream I’ve always had, and won’t get to say all the wonderful memories I’ve created with you.

I love every one of my friends, and I’ll miss you. Please don’t forget me, I know you’ll never hear this, but please don’t forget me.

I wish I could kiss you Dayus, but you’re busy on earth where you will still live.

What will happen to me, will I go to heaven, to purgatory, to the underworld… to hell? Lord, or God, or whichever magical being controls us after death, please don’t let me go to hell, I’m sorry for every wrong thing I did, I’m so, so sorry.

I have about 5 minutes left now. I wish I had the time to properly say goodbye to you, but the world doesn’t seem to want me too. I hope everyone lives their lives normally, but doesn’t forget me.

I want you to always remember me. I already thought that, darn it! I’ll miss you all.

I love you Dayus, I love you, Molly, my sweet golden retriever, who will never have her ears scratched by me again. I’ll miss you all. Now I’m crying, and my breathing is picking up, so I will have to wrap this up.

I’m sorry to everyone. I’ve let you down. Please don’t hate me. I have about a minute left; it’s getting hard to breathe.

I’m scared. I don’t want to die; I don’t want to leave this world. Why do I have to die, I’m scared, I want my mom and dad and Dayus, I want to be back home.

My vision is getting fuzzy now and its getting even harder to breathe. I’m sorry if these are my last thoughts, I want you all to know…

I love you.