Chapter 1
today is my birthday.
I hate it.
I hate how i feel.
So now I am trying to relax by listening to Ruth B. Her voice is very calming.
I should be working on my journal entries for english. I've been procrastinating for the last two weeks. I just wish school was over. I hate school. I hate myself. I hate today. I hate how I can never tell what is going through a persons mind. I wish I knew what to believe. I wish things were not so complicated.
Being a teenager sucks.
Im going to be 18 next year.
im so screwed.
Im not ready for college.
I am not ready to be an adult
I am not ready for life.
I am being so vague, I know, But i really dont feel like going into detail right now.
Maybe another time
oh well
I guess I should go prep for my Geometry Test.
I am going to fail.
I cant even think right now.
what am i going to do?
-elektra







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I feel you- I graduate high school next year and I am so not ready to be an adult... D:
Like my literal Idol is Billie Eilish and I love Yungblud(I was there for the Strawberry Lipstick premiere on yt), I listen to MGK, I love vintage hits- like ABBA, and hippie/disco music. Actually- fun fact the song I mentioned to you- Dancing Queen- is actually known as like "my song" to lie my family. But anyways yeah- I'm am really weird and like alot of things. :)