Journal

today is my birthday.

I hate it.

I hate how i feel.

So now I am trying to relax by listening to Ruth B. Her voice is very calming.

I should be working on my journal entries for english. I've been procrastinating for the last two weeks. I just wish school was over. I hate school. I hate myself. I hate today. I hate how I can never tell what is going through a persons mind. I wish I knew what to believe. I wish things were not so complicated.

Being a teenager sucks.

Im going to be 18 next year.

im so screwed.

Im not ready for college.

I am not ready to be an adult

I am not ready for life.

I am being so vague, I know, But i really dont feel like going into detail right now.

Maybe another time

oh well

I guess I should go prep for my Geometry Test.

I am going to fail.

I cant even think right now.

what am i going to do?

-elektra