chapter one
today i woke up with the same nightmare that ive been having for the last two weeks nothing feels the same without my mom and dad i bearly been getting sleep or eating i just feel like staing in bed for the rest of the day but i have to take care of avriel so as usalle i get up and go to her room i wake her up then i look at her eyes there puffy my poor baby been crying this makes me die a little more inside "avriel are you hungry " she looks u at me "yea can we get sum papa peas" i just nod me head i pick her up and take her to the kitchen i see my grandma at the table sitting there reading her newspaper i put avriel down " gamgam " she runs and jump in her arms i just slightly smile she look at me with that worried look i mouth im ok she nod and goes back to playing with avriel i just walk to the stove and start making eggs for avriel and myself life just i'snt the same i miss waking up to the smell of moms bacon oh god it smelled so good i miss hearing her laugh god why she have to leave i miss them so much i don't know why they had to leave me i just hope dominic make it out alive i don't know what id do if i lost him his my twin my bestfriend i cant lose him it would break me to pices i just don't know what id do if i lost him to i cant do this by myself i just cant i need him to help me build my stregth back but i gotta be strong for him right now he need my love and support i still remeber every faical exprresion an ever word we all said tears start pouring out my face then i feel some one shoving me that when i come back to reality " jayla the eggs are burning are you ok can u hear me talk jayla speak!!!!" "oh god im sorry gam gam i wasnt paying atteion " i fastly wipe away my tears "jayla are you ok youve been acting weird " "yea im fine jus got lost in my thoughts " "honey i know things been pretty hectic but will get thru this together " she holding my hands i just look away "im fine gamgam ill be ok " she just gets up im guessin to make avriel some more eggs i just get up and walk up the stairs and walk to my room and get my phone and plug in my ear buds and turn my music up full blast and lay on my bed and let the tears pour down my face as the memories being playin my head
