Introduction.
Ever thought what must be our real aim? Ever imagined what's the purpose?Are we here to please everyone around us? Don't you think we come to find happiness?What's the greatest happiness anyone could find in ones life?..
I believe we all here are for a reason..
"A reason to love ..
Yes, finding somebody who loves us unconditionally is the ultimate goal for us to be born.
Somewhere far in the dark our souls roam .. They bump in hurdles which the Darkness create and gets hurt.. With many scars and sorrow they tirelessly wander in the search of light. A light of hope.... A light to walk on a path without getting bumped and hurt.. We need this light to enlighten our Darkness...
This light helps us to reflect on ourselves and be our best version..For living fearlessly and happily without being judged..
They say love makes you complete ..
"It's all in our fate as god when send us to the world send another person to complete us.."
But then do we get a special tag as a confirmation?What if we defy God's choice? Will god forgive us? Yes he will as we are his children.. And as our parent he will accept our happiness..
But what about the others.."the so called people here on our planet"..What exactly is Love according to them? I genuinely want to know.!
Is it being born, studying, getting a stable job , marrying a partner making kids and live happy ever after? What if someone wants to break this typical rules.. Will they get accepted by the society?
Not breaking the rules and live according to the so called norms is what normal people do, Right.? Who will certify them as normal?What's the criteria to be Normal..?What does normal means to this World?
Is love precisely consider as for a man loving his woman and a woman loving her man. Does a heterosexual romance is called normal.. Do this definition make sense?
We are born in this beautiful yet judgemental world as a prisoner Where this society is a judge and we are the accused ..We fear doing things which might affect our reputation in this society. We just hide.. Hide everything.. Only we ourselves knows our true face..We fear to get exposed..
But are we really happy by pretending this!
I strongly believe we are incomplete.. Everyone says we come alone and we leave Alone..
But I refuse to this theory we obviously come alone but we never leave alone. We leave this world with many memories, especially the memories of the one who made our half souls complete.
My mom once said this to me you are a soul who wanders in this world alone it's only until you find one who make you feel complete from the inside.
I asked her, "How would I know when I find one.. ? "
She smiled at me and said,
"Your Heart.. Your heart will tell you when you find your love, son.."
Never thought my half soul which I was looking for would create so many problems for me and for the ones whom I considered as my people.
Who's fault was it that the soul who completed me was a boy. ?
He made me complete..but will they accept us.. ?
Because we both are boys!
Yes I am in love with a boy!!
Are my feelings wrong? Have I wronged my parents? Am I not normal?
My life now is encircled with so many questions whose answers are not easy to be found... I was sure about him.. but after this night I'm confused about Rio, what should I do?
I met him finally with all the hardships..but can we be together just like the so called normal couples live or will they make us fall apart.
Will I and Rio back off when they will pressurise us..accusing us for not fitting in the social norms.
Who will decide our future..They or Us!
(Here, Rio is denoted as R and Shine is denoted as S! )
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R:"Shine! What are you doing exactly? Open the door now! "
Rio was continuously knocking the Apartment door and calling out for shine ..
S:"Will you please leave me alone..I don't want to talk to you!"
R:"You can't do this to me, are you listening !!...open the door at once..tell me what's wrong and we will fix this. "
Shine was standing with his back at the door he look terrible his face was swollen up and his eyes were red he was looking angry but more we look at him he seemed broken.. He had a pitiful face.
S:Listen to me Rio, we can't fix this it's all over can you please just leave I really don't want to see your face!
R:"Is it so Shine? Will you tell me where have I wronged you? Everything was fine right? What happened?..Now You Don't want to come out and even don't want to look at my face..Ok! But Just answer my one question what should I do with my life after you leave ? "
S:"It's your life why do you ask me about your life's destiny. I don't know about it just live as you wish.. "
R:"Shine you can be this cruel? Huh? "
Rio rested his head on the door..he closed his fists tightly and placed them on the door ..He looked miserable. He was trying to say something but he couldn't hold his tears back..
In a very low voice he said,
"Shine, You are not the person whom I loved.You never behaved this way please tell me what have I done..its been a month now..For how long you are gonna run away from me.. I am going crazy!!You are ignoring me so bad still I'm begging you to stay.. Do you take me as a fool?"
Now Rio looked really angry. Wiping the tears with his shirts sleeves he smashed a hard punch on the door and yelled with all the life he had inside him..
R:"You.. You can't do this to me.. Do you hear me!!.. You are the one who made me crazy for you and now you are telling me to leave? Huh ?..You're running away from your responsibility?.. Answer me god dammit.. ! "
S:"Rio I'm done with you Just leave.! "
R:"Ohh.. Are you bored with me Shine? .. Right?? Or have you found a better toy than me? If you are cheating on me I won't forgive you..Tell me the truth!! "
Shine just sat on the floor.. Tears running down his eyes.. He mourned,
S:"I am not cheating on you ..I loved you Rio!!..I fucking loved you!"
R:"So what's the matter now you don't love me anymore Shine? "
Shine didn't utter a word!!
R:"Kiddo! if you don't open the door I'll break it right now.. I've acted patiently enough. Open this goddamn door I'm Warning you for the last time.."
S:"If you are going to force me I'll kill myself ..I'm warning you too...get lost from here now!! "
R:"You dare to die shine? I Don't allow you to do that and if you even scratched yourself a little I'll punish you really bad.. Open the door! "
S:"I'm not gonna open, If you want to see me dead .. Fine ! As you wish Rio!"
Rio looked worried now..he took a deep breath and said,
"Listen to me, I'll say this only once. .
Today if I walked away from this door I won't ever return to you..I'm giving you '20 seconds' if you want to stop me.. Stop me right now, you know what I say once is my final statement. Don't take me easy.."
I'm counting now.
1..2..3.......
Shine knew if Rio walked form here he will lost him Forever..
Shine just anxiously stood up..Thoughts going on his mind..
This all started with those 20 seconds.. I fear these 20 seconds.. I have almost lost him once because of this.. Can i afford it once more..Your life can change within 20 seconds.. That's true.. Mine changed.. Today once again Rio is giving me these 20 seconds to decide.. Whether to start it over again or end it completely forever!!
What should I do? Should I stop him or let go???..
What happened between Shine and Rio.. Why things are so bad what's the reason of shine's uneasiness??let's find out in this story ahead.. Fate, destiny, plots will make them fall apart.. Will they hold on or give up?!
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