With You

I came out with a sexy black Victoria Secret matching bra and underwear set while he sat at his laptop procrastinating with his final exams by being on his phone. “Hey babe,” I said as he slowly picked his head up. His deep hazel eyes appeared when he combed his long loose curly hair out of his face pulling it back and raising his eyebrows at the sight of me. He whistled as I walked over, “Damn what’s all this for?” I climbed onto the bed and flipped my short loose black curls to one side as he hooked his finger onto the strap of my bedazzled Victoria’s Secret pantie. “Turn your laptop off,” I teased as I got on my knees and crawled closer to him. We kissed passionately as he softly pulled my bottom lip with his pearly white teeth and placed a hand on my hip. “After this class?” I nodded in approval, I could definitely wait.

Being a virgin was hard to pull off especially knowing when you believed the right time was for yourself. You want something so bad, but sometimes when the time comes you don’t even know what you want anymore.

I teased Denver as his class went on, he smiled and raised his eyebrows; I knew he couldn’t resist me. Minutes passed and he began to present his presentation for his class and I watched him. I don’t know what came over me, but a bunch of thoughts and emotions started to pour into my head. “You’re body isn’t cute enough”, “You’re too scared, back out now”, “Don’t do it”.

Tears began to flow from my eyes and I was an ugly crier so I left the room and dipped into the closet. I rummaged through Denver’s dresser to find a sweatshirt so I could throw it on and make all the inner thoughts in my head just go away. I began throwing clothes on the floor as the tears flowed harder down my face making me gasp for air in little bits. You’re such a fuck up Claudia, why can’t you ever do anything right. Sex is the most simple thing yet you make it sound like a monster. I began to lose balance and stumble, I hated myself.

I found a sweatshirt and tugged it on walking over to my full body mirror and looking at the mess before me. My hair was frizzed and my makeup was smudged. Mascara was lined all the way down my cheeks and my hands wrapped right around my waist.

There was a knock at the closet door and a voice asking if I was okay. “Be out in a second,” I said snuffling. I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes and walked out seeing Denver laying on the bed looking at my disgustingness. I sat down next to him and felt him glaring at me. I looked away to not make eye contact but caught a glimpse of myself in the window reflection and began to tear up again; why was I feeling so emotional and disgusted with myself? I felt Denver’s arm softly wrap around my waist and pull me into him. Whenever he held me I couldn’t help but cry, he made me feel so safe and protected. Even with his class still Zoom on he managed to make time for me when I needed it the most. I felt as he tilted my head back and planted a kiss on my quivering tear drenched lips. “I love you my pretty girl,” he said as he used his thumb to wipe my tears away. His professor called his name and he turned on his mic to answer the question while still holding me close.

After his class ended he pulled me onto his chest and laid my head down. I lifted myself up and kissed his sweet lips and placing my hand under his black t-shirt feeling his muscular abs. I felt his hand tug at my hair softly and go down to massage my neck as I began to kiss him harder. He pulled back for a moment almost resisting my next kiss. I looked at him confused as he continued to massage my neck and stare from my lips to my deep hazel eyes. “What’s wrong?” He licked his lips and smirked, “Just go a little easy on yourself, don’t try to rush anything.” I felt annoyed, he was really coaching my ass how to kiss him. He leaned in again and started to tease me, pulling back slightly every chance I went in to kiss him. I started getting impatient wanting him so bad when he wouldn’t let me, I grabbed the back of his neck forcing his lips to mine and let go as he began to kiss me back. His hands traced up my back to the black laced bra I had on underneath his sweatshirt.

He pulled away pulling the sweatshirt off of me revealing the sexy black laced set I had on for him before. He held my ass close against him and moved my hips making me grind against his dick. His lips traced against my neck leaving soft kisses as my neck rolled back and relaxed. He picked me up and laid me down on my back kissing me from my lips down to the top of my underwear and stopped to look up at me. “You okay?” He asked sitting up and placing his hands on my inner thigh and squeezing. “Don’t sto-“ He cut me off by looking at me seriously. “Baby look at me. You aren’t ready and I can tell you want to force it and just get it over with, but that isn’t what I want for you. I want your first time to be memorable and comfortable not something to rush you know? I’m always going to be here,” he lifted me up by grabbing hold of my arms and pulling me up, “, but when you’re ready I’ll be ready too okay?” I climbed into his lap and he held me close placing a kiss on the top of my head. I let myself come to the conclusion that I probably wasn’t going to lose my virginity tonight, but I did gain myself an amazing boyfriend in replacement.