Because I Hear the Voices

For years, I have been wondering

For years, I have been left in the dark

I do not understand the reasoning,

But I know it left its mark.

I don’t know how I feel -

And what’s worse I don’t know why?

All I know is that I am not ready yet

It’s not yet time for me to fly,

When I try to express my anger

I somehow have to cry

And I don’t know how to express my feelings

That’s why a part of me had to die,

How easy it was to be a child

How easy it was to understand

How hard it is to grow up now

And somehow learn to stand,

I don’t know what to do

And I don’t know where to go

I don’t even know what I can say

Or if I’ll ever know.

Authors note:

Dedicated to:

My very own T.R and his ‘Cookie’ who believed in me enough to encourage me to try. I also want to thank their ‘Grub’ for your continual support and spelling guidance, and most importantly for the unfailing belief you had in my writing, even when I had given up seeing it myself. In addition I want to thank Sean, for giving me the courage to grasp hold of my dreams, because otherwise T.R would never have made it out of my closet, and Devlin for making me laugh.

Rest in Peace Da.

© Nicole Hamlyn, 2020