The mind and The heart.

I feel suffocated. I feel out of place. What is this feeling? The truth is i’ve been in this state for a long time... Today again is yet another day of restlessness. It’s a combination of the feelings i find disgusting, raging and empty. Sadness is ok for me because i’ve been in a constant state of emotionless crying in my heart. While anxiety is crippling its way to my mind, depression is building a wall around my heart, inside resides a family of unwanted sadness. I did say i was ok with it but the sensation i feel each time is still vivid in mind and skin, shivering at the slight reminiscence of it. I feel like throwing up, ew.