Lost Addiction

I ummm I keep thinking about you. I know it's been a while but I still fantasize about you being by my side. When I'm about to sleep I dream about it being you who is next to me hugging me and feeling your body's heat. We fell out so badly that in the process I lost myself and I can't seem to get her back, the girl that you loved. Then you told me you'd like it if I'd turn my look into a more Gothic look.. Lol. I am trying yet I dont see you. Whenever I go out to Walmart or even just to work I imagine seeing you there and what I would do it what you would do. Tbh I think you would just ignore me and walk away but my heart can't help but fantasize the what if's. I've been thinking of texting you sooner. I hope your doing ok and I want to be selfish and ask if your still thinking about us two. I learned what the difference between a soul mate is and a twin flame and tbh I dont know which ones we were but I just I feel like I have to move on. I bet you did already. I hope your happy. You said this would never happen when I asked you in the past if you were scared of us breaking apart. I still cry for you I hate you