Scattered,collected

Am I living a dream or a reality?
I don't know anymore.
I'm stressed, I'm really...stressed .
I'm scared, I'm immensely and extremely scared of everything.
When is this going to stop?
I'm petrified of my own actions.
I'm petrified of doing anything wrong.
And it's taking a toll on me.

~.~.~.~.~

I'm a scared little child,
Afraid to make my mommy and daddy mad.
Am I strong or am I weak.
Am I a child, or Am I a strong fiercely adult.
Am I dreaming, or am I in reality?
Am I capable of dealing with anything coming to my way?
Or am I too weak or broken to get through it.
Will it break me into little pieces ,that I'll never be able to glue them together?
Am I real , or am I a ghost of a person.
Are my hands shaking, or has it always been this way?
I'm scared.
I'm petrified.
I'm still a scared little child who's afraid of the dark.
Am I in my own little world , or am I living with their world.

No, I am strong.
I defeated the scary little child .

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