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“please. just don’t make it harder than it has to be.“you mumble.

“y/n wait.” tooru calls out to you.

storming off before he could finish himself, leaving tooru behind heartbroken, you try to wrap your head around what just happened.

this was for the best,

i deserve better,

so does he,

right?

it wasn’t a shocker to you that your relationship had to end. it was bound to happen in your opinion.

you both had different goals in life; both paths veering off in opposite ways.

he only had one priority in life and that was volleyball. tooru make that very clear going into the relationship but you didn’t think it would be that big of a deal.

you also had one priority in life as well; finding happiness. that’s been a hard goal to reach.

they say you could find happiness in a person; does that apply to everyone?

hook up after hook up, hoping you would find the one. never did.

until tooru. he brought everything. happiness, love, warmth... you name it.

but there’s always that point in a relationship where things just go down hill; either you make it together or split apart on your way down.

recently he’s been not all there. he didn’t answer your calls, reply to your texts, or even keep his window unlocked for you.

and you couldn’t lie, this wasn’t all his fault. it’s not like you went out of your way to make ends meet.

this was different to you. your first relationship other than friends-with-benefits type thing.

you both were strangers in a relationship.

you hadn’t fully opened up to tooru quite yet, you didn’t want things moving quickly.

come to think of it now; you didn’t know much about tooru.

on the outside his persona was this charming talented guy but on the inside that was all unknown to you.

what was he really like?

behind closed doors,

was he

affectionate?

positive?

selfish?

impatient?

you would never know. he didn’t give you the time of day for anything really; so why would you? why should you feel obligated to hear him out?

you shouldn’t,

you should?

“y/n!” he tries to call out as you hop in your car, quickly driving off to avoid being bombarded with the “i’m sorry, i’ll make it up to you” line.

tooru was a good guy, he did treat you well. there was no reason for you to complain, it was just out of your comfort zone you could say.

it was almost like you were living in a fairy tail or in a movie that was constantly playing on loop.

you weren’t ready for something like this yet.

“hajime can we not do this right now~” you groaned laying back down on your bed.

“wait hold on, what expression did he have? the stupid one or the shitty one?” he chuckled.

“the shitty one” you chuckled.

“you should’ve told me and i could’ve tagged along with you! i would pay to see his fa-” hajime was cut off with his phone ringing.

“it’s him.”

“answer it, i don’t care” you shrug fixing your attention back to your phone.

he answers it putting tooru on speaker so the both of you could hear him.

“iwa-chan come comfort me~” he whines.

“no.”

“what do you mean no?! i just got dumped and you say no to comforting me?”

“you brought this onto yourself shittykawa.”

“you’re with her aren’t you?”

hearing that accusation made you perk up; shaking your head no to hajime, trying to tell him to say no.

“no?”

“tell her i said i hope she’s okay..”

“and tell him i said fuck you.” you say out loud in a jokingly manor, forgetting he’s on speaker-phone.

“oh. okay.”

BEEP

“you really know how to hurt that guys feelings huh?” hajime jokes.

“i didn’t mean to say that out loud!”

turning your phone back on, you’re met with a picture of you and tooru cuddling on your lock screen. you stop and admire how sincere the picture looked. it felt real, and definitely looked real. was it real to him? or me for that matter,

“you don’t have to cut him out of your life completely, you know?”

“it’s for the better.”

“look, i know i haven’t been giving you the best advice, but you need closure too. besides, it’s a cute picture.”

“it just doesn’t feel right. i wish i wasn’t such an ass, then maybe we could’ve lasted longer.” you groan shoving your face in a nearby pillow.

“you know, he always talked about you during practice. never once did i hear that guy talk about anything but you.”

“when he was ghosting you, he had somewhat of a legitimate reason too. nationals were coming up and it had everyone on edge.” he added.

“did i take this too far?” you ask.

“if you feel like you did the right thing, then that’s your call.” hajime reassures.

“well i gotta get to practice now, see ya later?” he asks quickly.

“yeah, see ya.”

with what hajime left you with thinking of the possibility that maybe this wasn’t the right thing to do... but it doesn’t excuse tooru’s actions,

waking up from your cat nap you turn to your phone and see that you have 23 missed calls and 3 voicemails from tooru.

you decide to at least listen to his voicemails, maybe it was an emergency?

hey it’s me. i just- i just wanted to apologize. i don’t know if it was something i did to make you want to end things but i’m sorry. could we at least talk this out? you mean a lot to me y/n. swing by my dorm anytime you’re free to talk...

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after waiting about 30 seconds the awkward silence on his side was enough to convince yourself that’s all he had to say.

you were definitely considering talking to him sometime. he deserved the closure; and so did you.

what would you say to him?

i’m sorry?

it was just overwhelming?

or could you use the classic “it wasn’t you, it was me” line.

or you could write him a letter?

that would make me sound like a pussy.

it’s not like i’m scared to talk to him, it’s just what would i say? how would i say it? would i lie or tell him the truth?