Life...

A story about a small shy kid who never grew by heart wanted to be just like a kid for all her life. Life had something else stored for her. But she never gave up on her attitude, The only thing she wanted was to make was people around her happy. She always believed that God gave her many things, more than she ever deserved in her life but sometimes she expected things to go her way but it didn't, it hurt her in unknowing ways

Maybe god wanted her to be a strong mature kid at a young age. The irony right let us begin.

I am AVELIN this is my story. Not a romance but yes I can guarantee you that it has many values hidden. I am a person who doesn't to marry, That's what I tell my friends it's not like they believe me but yes we have made a bet on this. I don't know what will happen. What do you guys think do tell me your suggestions "Should we be alone in this world and not be hurt or rather we should be in a relationship and get hurt?". If I let others close to me it means they would know everything about me meaning they can hurt me

in unexplained ways. I have a story about it, who doesn't, everyone does, so do I.

It was about when I was small probably in middle school. There was a girl named Angelito. She was(the word is "was") girl was my best friend like since I have known this world, she was always with me. I loved her, she loved me too. But, there is always a but in between which creates a problem, I don't even know when and where this started and everything started going down. The problem arose when we were growing. U know growing up has always fascinated me like everything changes we change in a lot more different way, I just didn't know that our priorities also changed. I guess her priorities changed, she wanted new friends now. But best friends stick together right they are meant to be together for a lifetime. I guess no, not anymore. Now things took a turn in the wrong direction. She started mocking me on small things which I couldn't do but she could. I wasn't that good at studying to be very frank. I was an average girl with average marks. She started comparing me with her, showing off her marks to me, like she was mentally telling me that, I am more capable than you are, you are nowhere near me.

That was the worst thing about her at that time, showing off. She wasn't like this earlier, I don't know what changed her. Once, the worst and the best thing happened with me, not the best I came to know years later that it was very toxic for me. So, I was talking to this girl who was a transfer student helping her, kinda wanted her to be my friend. Ok, I make friends very easily so yeah just brushing up some of my skills. Angelito saw me with her, I don't know what happened to her. She dragged that transfer girl to the washroom and gave her a piece of advice to f**king stay away from me. Cute huh! yeah, that was my thought at that time.

But guess I was wrong, My best friend being possessive about me was the worst thing ever. She was just jealous about the fact that how can I even have friends other than her. God series of things started happening after this.

I remember this night I can't forget it, One day what happened was, we were just chit chatting in the corridor, girls stuff usually talking and venting out! duh

We were discussing about the popular girls of our school... Ok, admit it there are popular girls in every school about whom we love to bitch, no offense but yeah it's just a habit. (very good for relieving stress you know ) Out of nowhere, Angelito tells me "you know what I call Armentha for homework and all other stuff and when she doesn't pick up or when she isn't available I call you! I was like excuse me what the f**k! (ouch that hurt) still hurting like it was yesterday. I don't get how people can say that when she is my priority am I only an option in her life.

And that shit hurts, she was my best friend! I burst into tears, of course not in front of her but yeah when I came back home! Don't get me wrong ok, I don't fight much actually I hate fighting, believe me, I didn't want to fight her, I can cry but not fight. I didn't say a word to her that day but the following week she didn't show up so she called me and asked me "hi there, what happened in school you know I couldn't come today!!". Ok, it was my chance to tell her that I am not an option and if she thinks that I am an option then ok she needs to stop, I told her that "didn't Armentha pick up your call, call her again and ask her what happened today she will tell you Because I won't!"

With that, I cut the call and bamm that was good!! I know she was my best friend and I shouldn't have spoken to her like that, but screw it, it was going out of my way. My self-respect was being compromised I had to do something but you know what I did nothing. My advice for you guys is that don't you dare look up to people who called you when they needed you, treated you like an option. Never be friends with them, They will just use you and then throw you in some corner making it seem like it was your mistake, you are the person causing it, Where you won't matter, Your feelings won't matter at all.

I am telling you all this cause I have experienced all of this. I forgave her as she was pleading me "plz plz plz plz I won't do it again". I forgave her, my mistake, even after all this how could I!! For every word she spoke to me which broke my heart, She was forgiven again like always as earlier when she used to do things like these (Me being a fool again). It's what life is right you being you even when it hurts you. When we grew up a little our classes were different, I made my friends there (My lifelong friends hope so for now). At that time also I did the things she wanted me to do, what she loved doing. Now things weren't about me,

it was about her, I was becoming like her for her, I was completely losing myself. But then everything was over after that day, All my feelings were like vanished in a go. Days passed weeks passed she started ignoring me her friends changed, Her priorities changed. She didn't wanted to spend time with me, She usually did it with her other cool friends. That day she came to me all messed up crying. I was worried for her I got up from where I was sitting with my friends and went to sit with her.

Though my friends told me not to get up and go to help her, they warned me about all this. Despite that, I got up went to her, and sat down beside her listened to her story that why was she sad. She was sad because apparently, she fought with one of her cool friends, So she became upset and I was comforting her. When all of a sudden her friend appeared and apologized to her she got up and left like that without even looking back she went froward and I, I was sitting there alone, alone, all alone with no one. The person for whom I left everything I was doing, That person left me without even looking back.

That was the end of it I guess, I left her for my good. I felt at peace, of course not before crying myself for days, weeks, months. I think about her now, but it's done it was my past. I learned many things from the past

# Never let someone be your priority when you are just an option for them they will always leave you trust me.

# Never think of losing your self-respect to gain their affection, At the very end, you will lose that very person who makes you lose your self-respect. One day you will realize that whatever you are going through has its reasons and trust me it will

all be worth it (Pinky promise (;)

# Cherish each and everything in your life cause you know why, life is really short, make mistakes, a lot of them, you will have many experiences and will eventually become wise in the end.

# And you know what, listen to your heart even it's telling you to do a thing, you will be at peace with that. The mind only tells you fact it doesn't work when your feelings come into play (not even Amygdala), even when it tells you to do things that might not be right for you but you will always be at peace at last. I am not saying that you don't use your brain, use that, that will help you, but you know it should be a fine mixture of both.

That was it, A small story. I am not telling you to like or share. I only want you guys to share your experience with me so that we all can learn a little (I am kind of selfish (; want experience without experiencing it).