I WISH I MISSED MY EX
We had been together for the last six months. I don’t even know on what bases our relationship even started. This wasn’t love. You were too needy. Wanted so much I couldn’t give you. Our texts, call, everything was monotonous. It just ‘Hey’ ‘How are you?’ And that was it.
I was in the studio when one of the lads got a call from his girl. He looked so happy after the call. His eyes were sparkling. It was an eye opener that you weren’t for me. You were a habit, I got used to you on my schedule. Whatever sparks between us had died in you and I. You were still persistent and trying to make things work. Why were you holding on? You should have forgotten about me.
You wanted our relationship to last but I couldn’t hold up the end of the bargain. You were kind of a nuisance like a fly that didn’t want to leave me alone. You were up in my space s well. I try to understand from your point of view. I would ask that much if my boyfriend if he was drifting away.
You had no idea the relief I felt after I sent you the break up text and call afterwards (I was too busy to meet in person) I’m sincerely sorry. You still tried to make it work when it was over between us. We weren’t destined to be like you wanted us to. You called so many times and sent me lots of texts that put me through stress and I declined all of them. It got so much I blocked and blacklisted you’re number. I felt so selfish but I was doing the right thing for myself.
You finally left me alone after so much trying. I had breathing space. You were seeing other people and I was happy for you. You were moving on. My friends called me mean but I had to let you go.
I wished it was just the typical relationship. That you broke up with me, I cried, took me couple of months to recover, but it wasn’t.’ It’s not you, it’s me’ you’ll say. I know am a sucker for cheesy high school movie pickup lines.
Really I wish I missed you but this time it’s me not you this time.
