Chapter 1
Summary
How do you love someone who isn't allowed to love you back because of race. I knew he felt for me and even so because of the way he made love to me so delicately yet rough and passionate. As I gazed into his eyes, I knew that no one had so much control over me than he did. But I knew even more that we would never be, He could never choose me over his family. As he sucked on my neck so passionately, he looked up into my eyes as I fought to hide the pain, and he said the words I've waited so long to hear. The words I've longed for since I saw his face. The words in which I knew would never mean so much to me from anyone else other than him. "I'm In Love With You Ivy." And then it struck me. Im a Rebel. I don't conform to what people say or feel and I will be damned if I let the only man that can make heaven appear in my life on this ungodly earth walk out of my life. It's not going to be easy but Payton is and will always be mine. Racist or not....this love is our life, not anyone else's.
Disclaimer
-I advise you not to read if you are racist and judgemental when it comes to my writing
-This Book contains, explicitness, sexual imagery, profanity, and adult content.
-18+
- It is already prewritten, however I have to upload everything.
I absolutely loathed riding the bus to school everyday, especially when there's a 90% chance that you would either sit with someone who is willing, which was rare considering they always replaced the empty area with there bags or a friend, or if you would be on the floor. Although it did have its advantages. I loved any freedom I was given to pop in my airpods and drift off into my euphoric heaven like dimension fantasizing about love in its finest sense with the one guy who sparked the slightest feeling of what love felt in the romantic notion since kindergarten. His name was Payton Myers.
Luckily there was a free seat for me in the back. I slouched down onto the seat throwing my bag aside from the window.... Six more weeks and I will be long gone to a fresh new scenery of new people and oohh yeah...ABSOLUTE FREEDOM. College has never made me feel more ecstatic.
Payton and I go waaaayyyy back. Since pre-K. But it was until kindergarten that I developed this euphoric butterfly frenzy for him. He had the sexiest white boy tan as I called it, with hair that draped over his forehead. (I loved when he threw it to the side as he motioned his head while it flew in a upward manner to the side from his eyes.) Over the years he had gotten extremely tall. 6'4 to be exact with calves that was so defined, to even wear jeans or slacks they would extend through them. His eyes were this beautiful light brown but, they always changed somehow giving off green-ish brown vibes with a hint of grey. He was known for his professional skills in baseball. he was God-like. And his face....Oh my Holy Shucks....don't even get me started there. His face resembled an spitting reflection from Zac Efron from his younger days like High school musical and my fav movie...The Lucky One. What a scene, what a dream. And his smile was the icing, sprinkles, filling and much, much more.
I could feel my insides warming up at the thought of describing him. My hearts pace picked up and butterflies ran from my stomach to my ass. Never knew them to go that way. I laughed out to myself in amusement of my own joke.
The Bus stopped and I dreaded getting off. I wasn't a sociable butterfly so I didn't have friends other than myself. I had one friend for two years but, once 12th grade came and we had no classes, she started being friends with my bullies and never spoke to me unless we were alone in the hallways, which disgusted my soul, but oh well. I'm a Goddess.
As I exited the bus I made my way right to the front office where I could be alone until the first bell for class rang. I didn't ever go to breakfast or lunge area seeing that I was always harrassed by different bullies from different grades.
I did in fact love being there due to our gorgeous guidance counselor who always gave me attention and advice. Mr. Bookman. When I say that man is a sight for sore eyes, I literally mean just that. He made me hot and bothered in the littlest things he'd do. Sometimes a thought ran across me that he knew exactly what he was doing. Did He?
As I sat there in the front as the teachers and administrators waved to me as they made there way in, I slipped off into Ivy land as my music heightened my imagery.
You see, you can't like someone for so long without trying them to see if they feel the same. A couple years ago I was in class and me and Payton was seated beside each other on the left side towards the back, secluding us from everyone.
It was a laid back day and we were watching a movie with our substitute teacher. Payton always liked to mess with me in the most attractive annoying boy ways. Like playing with my hair, or tripping me up, or even cornering me, making it hard for me to move or get away from him. I knew something was there. A guy just doesn't mess with you like that if he doesn't like you, right?.......Right???
So as I was trying to pay attention to the film, which was damn near impossible with this sexy hunk of a guy right beside me, a shoe ran across my foot between my legs, hooking them as he pulled back. I immediately jumped and looked at him as he laughed in a quiet way so that no one could hear.
" What you do that for?" I asked as I gathered myself and fixed my posture. "Because I can," He grinned in a mischievous way. "Uh, No. You can't, you should be watching the film" I replied, not knowing what else to say. "I've seen this like a million times, I'm not trying to watch this," He said as he snatched my phone off my desk and placed it in his right hand towards the wall beside him.
" Boy give me my phone before I-" I cut off while I leaned over and reached for my phone. He started laughing in a silent manner and put it between his legs as he caught my arms and pushed me off. "You too slow, you gotta be faster than that girl" as he tried to hold me back he grabbed on my right breast accidently and started laughing. Luckily no one heard and I started laughing too. Butterflies started to consume my insides as I saw him crying from laughing so hard he slightly opened his legs, and I then I reached in between when he noticed and grabbed my hand while closing his legs at the same time. It was so fast that I didn't even notice that I was grabbing his dick as I released and started laughing.
He immediately bursted into laughing and put his head in his arms on the desk to hide the redness on his face as he laughed and blushed at the same time. It was soo sexy. I noticed some of the people looking to see what was going on and started whispering to one another. I embarrassingly cleared my throat and stared at the film while still smiling.
When he sat up, he leaned back into his chair, still smiling as he wiped his face and covered his mouth. I could tell he was staring at me from the corner of his eye.
I held out my hand and glanced over " My phone?" I asked while trying to hide the passion on my face and in my body.
"What phone?," He asked while picking it up from his legs "You not getting this back unless you wrestle me for it" he smirked in a sneaky way and put it in his pocket.
"Payton, i'm not about to play with y-" He cut me off "I knew you was scary, its okay...I'll take it easy on you" he leaned up and layed his arms on the desk while looking over at me.
I knew that Payton was a flirt since I can remember, but he never asked of me to do anything to him when it came to Touching Touching. It caught me off guard. As much as I wanted to say yes, something in me wanted to be a rebel. The Rebel.
"If I was scary, I wouldn't have kissed you in kindergarten, if I was scary, I wouldn't have grabbed your dick, and if I was scary, I wouldn't let you do whatever you wanted to me. So look at me when I say this"
His eyes opened as he leaned in more giving off this mysterious erotic masculine look, I could tell he was interested in what I had to say.
" As intriguing as that proposal may sound, I'm going to have to pass on that, so if I have to scheme, plan and ignite fire under your ass to give me my phone...I'll get it either way" I grinned as he gave me this sexy erotic look
Then the School bell rang as everyone got up to leave. We sat there a few seconds looking at each other.
He then grinned before saying "Well, seeing that most would give in to that little threat of yours, you actually have my full attention, just as long as you keep your word' He gave me this side smirk "...See you in gym" he then proceeded to leave as he winked at me on the way out.
I totally forgot we had all classes together on A Days. Damn. Seeing him in his athletes wear did something dangerous to me. It always seem to put me in this trance. Ughhh Why me.
