Chapter 1 . BACKGROUND
I hate it, I hate it all.I hate what I am, what my life is right now.I just hate myself and where I come from.Am suffering from ulcers day and night.My health is not doing well,Am Seline 20 years old.This is me...
After my mother left to meet her stored fortune above the blue skies, accompanied by angels besides her, with the chariots of horses to the kingdom, while resting in peace,, everything in our family got scattered. For a house with no strong foundation will fall ,same here a house with no mother is like a river without a source. I still got some hopes that life will be better one day. This was my dream, but it seemed to be far away from destiny
My father started to behave like a lunatech.He would wake up early in the morning before the sun set and scatter all the dishes down, outside the compound be it clean or dirty. Then woke me up to clean them saying that I was lazy. I could hear him blubbering,'my late wife could have done this within a twinkle of an hour ' those were my father's words . I felt devastated and desolate from the current situation.l became hopeless. Dad would sit and walk by himself and we could hear him talking all by himself.
Am born in a family of three boys and my younger sister now she's still 6 years old. My brothers had ruined their lives by using illegal drugs every time.l even thought they could completely become dwarf headed. No one among them focused on their dreams, visions and future too. Something like lunatic ,, I thought..
We really needed a miracle.i decided to focus on my dreams and even got saved. Life in salvation was not so easy I thought but there it's where I got a piece of mind.Whenever I could go to church, my family could oppose me and say it was not a good place to go.They believed that churches were full of hypocrites and demons, They would say that I would be sacrificed by my own pastor. My father and three brothers developed an attitude towards pastors and churches ,never wanted to hear me taking my firstfruits and tithe to the house of the Lord, They said that the pastor was stealing on me. This made me grow more sad ,my heart was brocken into pieces.
I became strong in public but while I was alone,,, who knows what happened! Only God knewhow my heart was sinking deep down the sea . I would shade my salty tears while looking at the blue skies even at the dark skies with stars glowing only to the happy. I was still helpless with no one on my side to cuddle and snuggle me, to wipe my tears, to confront me, ooh poor me!
