Chapter dear jiminie | Dear Jiminie

dear jiminie

dear jiminie,

we've been friends since we probably learned how to walk, and have been living together since years. you are the best brother and soul mate i could have ever asked for. i still don't have a clue what i have done to deserve you in my life. and worse than that, i have no clue why i even deserve this life...

things hurt, things heal but for me, i don't know why, it just goes on. my pain never seems to fade away. it just hurts, unexplainably hurts. my head hurts, i can't do this anymore. my hands shake as i write this, my face drenched with tears, my mouth's all dry. i know i can't ever say this to you but you are the reason why i made it this far, almost 18 years of my life. but i'm afraid, i wont be living much longer.

jiminie, remember that i love you and always have. you have been my best friend for years and deserve all the love in the world. thank you for staying up late when i had fever, just watching over me. thank you, for bugging off people when they bother me. thank you, for just existing.

i'm so happy that you've found the love of your life. i hope yoongi hyung treats you right and that you marry him one day. please forgive me in advance for not being your best man or be there when you adopt your kids and be a nice uncle. i'm sorry, i wont be there when you shed tears as your future husband reads you a poetry before the vows. i'm sorry i wont be there to witness a lot of things in your life. but i'm glad i could be there for you in your life until now.

i hope you enjoyed the little trip with your friends and your boyfriend, it's currently about 10 a.m. when i'm writing this and i know you'd be back by 2 but maybe i won't be there to hug you for the last time or get a chance to get my hair ruffled by yoongi hyung. i wish i could get a few more hours with you, just so i could tell you in person how much you matter to me. but i really really really don't think i have any more time left.

no matter what happens, just know i'd be watching over you from heaven. just look at the stars, maybe i'd be there or better, i can be your protective angel. just know that even though i won't be there for you physically, i'm still there and have always been.

you deserve the world.

love,

your taetae.

Jungkook didn't expect to accidentally read something that was meant for someone else and that too, for his friend. He was just there at Jimin's place, thinking that he'd be back from his vacation with his boyfriend by this time, only to be greeted by a note written in a beautiful handwriting. The only thing bothering him was that it was a suicide note.

He remembered he shared a place with a friend, he didn't just know who. So he was assuming that it was him, indeed.

He checked his watch.

12:48 p.m.

If every thing he said was true, then he'd be....

Jungkook ran upstairs, he knew that the boy, whosoever he was, could be attempting a suicide and he couldn't just let that happen.

Right before he could go up the stairs, he saw a portrait hung on the wall with Jimin hugging a boy nearly his age. They were smiling and seemed happy. He ran up as fast as his feet could carry him. He opened the first door that came in his sight.

No one.

He opened Jimin's door to his room and no one was there either.

Until he opened the last door on the floor and what he saw next made his heart momentarily stop beating.

He saw the same beautiful boy, hung down with a rope from the fan.