Another night
Another frustrating night with my husband that doesn't end well for me. With him it is always the same. He is on the top pushing himself in and out of me without rhythm. I don’t feel anything at all. I wonder if he feels something because he usually lasts fifteen minutes and cum’s.
When we finish by finish, I mean him. All I can do is turn around and feel upset and empty, he has his orgasm, but I don’t have anything. Oh, but who is to blame here me! he blames it on me that after I had the kids it not the same. I know I have three kids, and it is not the same after you have children.
But why do I have more pleasure with my vibrator than with him? Is it because there is no fore play, no passion between us or is he not giving what he should to make me feel woman?
I have tried to talk to him about it, that we should touch each other, play sex games, massages etc. But no, he will not commit to our relationship.
I rub my tired eyes and think well, there goes another night feeling worthless and unsatisfied, although there is a part of me that still has hope that one day he will come to understand why I do not want to have sex with him anymore. I just hope it is not to late when he notices me drifting away.
