𝐓𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝|| 𝐃𝐨𝐓𝐚𝐞 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭

Taeyong had never had a good night's sleep before. Whenever he lays his body on the matters and his head on the pillow he would felt restless somehow

Part of his body wanted to sleep but his mind says otherwise, telling him to get up and finish the work that he was doing before he went to bed so he can start on a one new tomorrow. Telling him not to waste time because time is precious and it shouldn't be wasted on something like sleep which he can get any time but he doesn't

He doesn't take breaks even if he wanted to. He would skip meals to finish what he was doing it took to the point where he would set alarms to remind him to eat. But the alarms didn't help it just make him more irritated when it goes off

Even so, Doyoung still try to help him by calling him to remind him to eat and prepare breakfast, lunch, or even dinner if he will come home late from work in the morning so he could eat it

Taeyong is the type of person to think, do as many things in your life as possible so when you die you wouldn't regret it. He doesn't want regrets in his life he thinks if you had made the decisions yourself, you shouldn't regret it because you made that choice for yourself and you know had know consequences if you had a choose it. So regretting is just pointless. Which is stupid because in life there is the thing you regret and you want to turn back time to change the choices you have made so you won't regret it

Honestly, though he does have some regrets himself but even he does he would tell himself "Will it's too late now I can't change it even if I wanted to"

He pushes himself to his limit every day in till he can't do it anymore but then again he believes if he pushes himself to his limit he would overcome that limit and make a new one. Which is another stupid thing he believes in because it slowly draining him.

Whenever he has to finish something and he is at his limits he would tell himself "if you finished this you can finally start on a new one and be done with it". He would always feel like trash after he finishes it but he thinks it's a good thing because he had at least accomplished something

Doyoung will always tell him to rest but he doesn't because the time used to "rest" can be used for something more productive instead of resting

He looks down upon those who tell secrets to other people without knowing they could betray you anytime but even if he thinks that he is one of those people himself. Sometimes you just hate the person who does the thing but you are one of those people who do it to

He craves the comfort of other people

He would sometimes want to get a server injury just because he wanted to have the reason and the urge to cry. Also because he wanted to comfort from it, he wanted people to tell him "Everything will be okay". All that just for those reasons

These are probably the reasons why Doyoung gives most of his attention and time to Taeyong even though he is busy with his work

He wants the comfort of a person to tell him everything will be okay because it makes him feel safe and protected in some way he couldn't explain. Even though he doesn't want people too worried about him because it will make him feel like a burden

That what he felt like when Doyoung takes care of him. Even though Doyoung told he's not being a burden to him at all

He sometimes wants to feel the pains of betrayal, break up, family issues, or the death of someone who cares deeply just because he wanted to know how does it feel like

He would not hesitate to sacrifice himself to the people he loves even if they did him wrong or hurt him because he thinks everyone deserves a second chance even if they had hurt him

He would cry in the shower because when he cried in there the water will blend in with his tears creating the illusion he isn't crying but he is actually is

Doyoung knows that he does this when he's in the shower because he told him it's okay to cry because sometimes you need to let all out. Doyoung is the only person Taeyong will cry in front of because he will lend his shoulder for him to cry on and hug him in till he was finally done crying

He wants to focus on his goals and his goals only. He wants to stand on top of the world someday being the king of it

Doyoung told him that he will always be there for him even if he was at the lowest of time and he will support Taeyong decisions no matter what

Whenever people give him stuff or a present he would ask them twice about it to make sure they wouldn't regret it giving I to him. Doyoung have noticed that Taeyong always does it when he gives Taeyong stuff or presents even if it was on his birthday

He really doesn't like it when people say "A hero doesn't have to wear a cape to be a hero" because you never know the "hero" can also be a villain in disguise

Even so, he believes Doyoung is a hero himself

He thinks the villain in the story has their own reasons to be the way they are. A reason could because the world was cruel to them or they were abused. Which is very much understandable because he would also do the same

The way he wanted to die is to jump off a tall building because it's a one-time thing you can only do and also because he doesn't want a painful or pathetic death. If it doesn't work out he wants to die together with Doyoung

Sometimes he would feel powerful but then that confidence will be gone in an instant. He feels jealousy and envious towards people that have what he can't have like looks, talent, skills, leadership, confidence, or anything in general

He really envies the way Doyoung can handle any situations in any way possible

He doesn't like standing up to himself because he feels overwhelmed and pressured when he does it

He gets bored easily meaning he will lose interest in it right away even if he head starts on it yet. Like the time he had started something he had a plan for a long time but when he started it he felt bored somehow even so he still finished it. That probably the only reason he stills hold on to the thing he's passionate or interested in because he loses interest easily

Doyoung will sometimes tell him to try new things but it really doesn't work out for him even if he tried

The worse part is that on top of those things he has a love-hate relationship with sleep. Sometimes he would go to sleep easily and he would wake up in the middle of the night for some reason or sometimes he doesn't go to sleep at all

But Doyoung will sleep with him to help him go to sleep which is really comforting because he feels safe under Doyoung's arms wrapping around his body

Taeyong 1st pov.....

It was 11 pm at night time right now. I should be asleep right now but I'm not

I was laying in bed I kept turning around waiting to fall asleep but for some reason I couldn't. I give up and started to stare at the ceiling

The moonlight was shining through my window

Doyoung isn't home yet but he will be home soon

Then suddenly I heard the door open it's was Doyoung

He walks up to the bed I was laying on and sat on it. He was sitting near where my face was, running his fingers through my hair

"Couldn't sleep?" He asks, still running his fingers through my hair

I sat up from my lay position to look at him. He was still in his work clothes, black suit with his hair slick back

I nod in respond

"I'll go change and we can go to sleep together" Doyoung said, getting up from the bed

"Hmm..." I hum as a respond

3rd pov...

Doyoung stood up and walks away to get his pajamas from the closet. Then he went into the bathroom to take a shower

Taeyong sat there on the bed staring out the window while waiting for Doyoung to finish taking a shower

After a few minutes have pass Doyoung came out of the bathroom in his fresh new clothes

He walks up to Taeyong who was still staring outside the window and he sat down on the bed

"Let's go to bed" Doyoung said, staring at Taeyong

"hm" Taeyong hum in response as he slowly going into a laying position

Doyoung stood up and grab the blanket from below the bed since it had fellow off early. He places it over Taeyong and soon enough he gets in the bed himself

He places his arm under Taeyong's head and Taeyong turns his body to face Doyoung's chest. Doyoung also turns his body to make it easier for him to wrap his other arm around Taeyong to hug him.

When he had wrapped his arm around Taeyong's body he then proceeds to pull Taeyong closer to chest

Taeyong felt safe in Doyoung arms it gives him comfort. Soon enough he had fallen asleep without noticing

When Taeyong had fallen Doyoung lightly places a kiss on Taeyong's head and went to sleep with Taeyong in his arm

They both drifted to sleep with each other by their side