Watered Down Death
I like Poseidon.
I’d like his realm to end me.
I would feel calmer.
A river nymph asked
for a long and ending kiss
I died in her arms.
The ocean is calm.
I never was. So instead
I kiss the ocean.
You make things easy.
That does not mean I will stay
on Gaea’s surface.
Death asked for a kiss.
I give him one willingly.
His lips are water.
I am on a roof
Soon I will be on the ground
But I won’t use stairs
Have you ever thought
that life was just not enough?
I don’t have one now
The river is cool.
I feel it’s touch on my skin
and then I’m submerged.
My hair flows through it.
I can feel my lungs fill up.
It hurts so so much.
You can’t understand.
If you did I would be sad
because you’d be gone.
I want you to say
what is wrong with me right now.
So I can fix it.
If I can fix me,
Will that make your life better?
I hope that it will.
If I am fixed then
I will not have to leave you
because I am good.
I want to be good.
Please tell me that I am good.
I want to be good.
If I am not good
please tell me what I must fix.
I want to be good.
I want to be good.
Please tell me what I must fix
If I am not good.
I want to obey.
I want to do as you say.
Even though I’m scared.
That you will trash me
and then decide that I am
not useful to you.
Will you throw me out
like I am garbage to you
or will you keep me?
I want to be kept
so that I’m not alone,
so please keep me close.
I want to kiss you
more even than the ocean
but I am scared to.
Please tell me I’m good.
Please tell me that I am good.
Please tell me I’m good.
